Istanna Suwayya! Fi eh kaman..?

Assalam'Laikum...

If my blog was a rack of books, I bet it'd have cobwebs dangling everywhere by now. For it has been past a month since I last wrote a post. Lazy me! You see, the winter-lazy-fever has once again creeped its way down my nerves. Shush..shussshhhhh!! Go away. I really don't need you..not when the final exam is coming up in two months time *__*

At current, I am way into a few books; Ayat-ayat Cinta, Kerana Cinta Bertasbih (as mentioned in my previous post) and Hidayah Cinta. These three books propose the same message; that His love outbounds the love for others; and that no love remains as eternal as His. Jagalah Cinta Allah, nescaya Allah akan menjaga cintamu. They also have lotsa Hadith and Qur'an Tafseers - good food for the heart. And yes, I do need them, at this very moment, no doubts I do. Sometimes you just feel so gloomy and down, and you feel so far from Him.

This month had been a month of me juggling my life with conflicts of my own - of questions unanswered, confusion, hesitations and such, and of thinking ahead into the future. You have a big jigsaw puzzle in front - you think you see the picture clear enough, but some spots remain unearthed. At times it feels as if you have some telepathy with your dearest ones, and you believe that they have those mutual feelings too. And sometimes, they just do...

Wahai orang yang lembut hatinya...
Sudah lama aku selalu mengecap pahit
Kala beroleh penderitaan
Aku tiada sesiapa pun melainkan Allah di hatiku
Tapi kau datang dengan cahaya...
Aku ingin menjadi yang halal bagimu
Yang kau kecup keningnya
Kau hapus air matanya...

Dari orang yang selalu merindukan cahayamu...
Sarah

"...It could be that you dislike something, when it is good for you; and it could be that you like something when it is bad for you. Allah knows, and you do not know." [2:216]

"...In Him I place my trust, and all those who trust should trust in Him alone.” [12:67]

Wallahua'lam...