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And then came me!

2012-01-07T00:25:00.000-08:00

This post was supposed to be written by Mama 6 months ago. However she was rather busy, and Papa kept on insisting, so I’m writing this on behalf of them instead.

Posted by Hayfa Ibtisam Binti Mohd Ismail :P

19062011 - Mama was a G1P0 woman pregnant at 38 weeks 4 days

300am

It all happened on one fine morning when mama suddenly felt a gush of fluid soaking her bed down under. Twas so massive, she just had to go to the bathroom. Gosh clear liquor was leaking out aplenty, non-stop! Thrilled yet nervous, mama woke papa up from his dreams, only to find out that papa was twice as scared!

So mama called tok mama:

Tok mama: Laaaa ni mesti dah pecah ayaq ketuban nih! Siap cepat kita pi spital.

At first mama was a bit reluctant because the contractions were still mild and irregular, hence she would be admitted as PROM<18H (mama malas nak duduk wad lama-lama sebab hari-hari pergi wad T_T).

So she called the PAC.

Mama: Salam nak tanya, HO mana oncall PAC eh sekarang?

JM: Dr Aliah

Mama: Ok, terima kasih! Saya dah LL (leaking liquor) lah akak, huhu

Dr Aliah was mama’s friend, and a very good doctor, so mama agreed on going early.

430am

Mama, papa, tok abah and tok mama (and me!) arrived at the PAC. Obviously there were no other patients, so Dr Aliah attended to mama stat.

Dr Aliah: Clear liquor demonstrable, tapi os still closed lah Sarah (which meant that ‘the door’ was still closed). Sarah kena admitlah ye macam biasa J

Mama: Huahuaa malasnyeee…okay takpe-takpe J

So after all the examinations etc, 600am mama was sent to Bed 2, Ward 5E. Tok abah and tok mama went back home first, and papa accompanied mama up to the ward. He also bought mama 2 pieces of roti canai (tiba-tiba mama mengidam roti canai T_T).

Hour by hour the contractions were getting regular and stronger. By 12 noon, they were 2:10:20. Dr Zulida the Specialist oncall made a VE, and it was already 2cm, but the cervix was still thick. She did an S&S (sweep and stretch). Mama was also given ampicillin (even though HVS was negative, Dr Zulida insisted on it as doctors turn out to be one of the major GBS carriers, hence, just to be on the safe side).

1500

The contractions were getting stronger as ever. Mama timed them by herself; it was already 3:10:30. The pain was soooo unbearable, she just had to call the nurse. Dr Norliza the new MO made a VE.

Dr Norliza: 3cm, effaced lah Sarah! So saya suruh diorang push awak ke LR ye!

Mama: Ooooo…kkkayyy *gulp*

Mama was pushed down to the LR with a very tight face! 1630hrs, Dr Ain the MO oncall made a VE: 4cm it was. Mama was given IM Nubain.

However the contractions were sooooo painful; she just had to sniff Entonox PRN – and mama became sooooo high on entonox! Sampai papa pun takut T_T

But the pain was soooo irresistible, sampai mama cakar-cakar tangan papa, so Dr Ain offered to mama epidural analgesia.

1800hrs

Mama agreed, and dad signed the consent, but just as the anesthesiologists were about to explain the procedure what not, the JM in charge VEed; “Dah 7cm lah doktor!”.

Mama: Haaaa cepatnya! (Mama cuak gile okay!)

Well the contractions were 4:10:30, and mum felt so restless, and before you knew it, the JM screamed: “Dr dah fully!!!!!”.

In came Dr Liyana the HO oncall (as Dr Ain was rather busy).

Dr Liyana” Okay Sarah, ingat macam mana awak suruh patient push, macam tula jugak awak buat ye. 1, 2, 3, teraaaaaammm!!!”.

The 2^nd stage was rather quick. After 4-5 pushes I finally came out. Phew!

Everything was different outside the door. I remembered laying down on mama’s chest, and then they handed me to papa. I heard papa recite the athan, MashaAllah it was beautiful J.

2200hrs

Mama and me were pushed upstairs to Ward 8B Bed 8. Tok mama, tok abah and paksu Ariff were all excited, waiting. After some hugs and kisses, they went back home, leaving papa, mama and me.

The coming day the rest of the family came to see me; Makngah Hani, Makteh Mira, Makcik Nisa, Atok, Opah, Paklong Hussin, Pakngah Hassan, Makngah Min and Maksu Nurul…and many other friends of mama and papa. I felt so blessed J.

* * *

Well that was what had happened 6 months ago. Sorry for the humongous hiatus! It was just that, mama said she just has to publish this asap. She wants all of my milestones recorded virtually.

To date, I am trying hard to crawl, which is rather difficult. Everyone is urging me to crawl fast! I could also recognize faces now, and I cry when unfamiliar faces pop in sight. I eat rather a lot, like 2 full bowls of porridge and some Farley’s biscuits per day (I weighed 6.6kg when I was 6 months old, can’t wait to see how much it’d be for the next check up!). Mummy has already taught me to sleep in my own bed J And yes I think I could understand adult language now, haha!

May Allah bless mama and papa and everyone around me ^___^

Me: 1 hour of life; 2.7kg

1st month; 3.1kg

2nd month of life; 3.4kg

Below: 3rd month of life; 4.3kg

5th month of life; 5.9kg

6 month of life; 6.6kg

Double the joy!

2010-10-26T02:55:00.000-07:00

Alhamdulillah. Yesterday two great news came dangling in altogether. Thank You Allah for your endless blessings. Just couldn't be more thankful. =)

To cut things short, we have been posted to Hospital Serdang (smile!). Hubby is now tagging along in Medical Department, and wifey is posted to Orthopedics. InshaAllah the best departments for us to start internship.

Another news is...well let's just hold it for a while, shall we? Save the best for the last *wink*wink*

Blissfully Married.

2010-08-29T08:55:00.000-07:00

Salam.

I know this post is rather late for such an announcement, but this is it:

I AM HAPPILY MARRIED =)

The wedding went well alhamdulillah, and we had a fabulous honeymoon in Perth =).

Sekarang tengah kumpul duit untuk tunaikan haji pula.

We're done with the SPA interview, and are currently waiting for the induction call. Should be sometime after raya inshaAllah. Yup been pretty nervous to face the two years of total suffering, but being jobless is no good either.

Doakan segalanya berjalan lancar.

Come, let's seek for the auspicious night of Lailatul Qadr! =)

Cry me a river T_T

2010-06-11T10:58:00.000-07:00

6 years of studying in Ukraine has definitely taken it's toll on me. Despite the banes and menaces, I have a feeling that I'd be missing this place pretty much. On top of it all, would be the precious moments I had had with my friends who have been with me through thick and thin. Thank you peeps (you know who you are) for being such a sport. You guys, I'd surely miss forever =)

swim like a butterfly!

2010-06-07T00:38:00.000-07:00

Salam.

I am done with 3 papers, alhamdulillah (woot wooot!) but the toughest 3 are yet to come T_T. I have mastered (cewah poyo!) backstroke and am struggling with freestyle, and wish to learn butterfly swimming strokes but the pool will be closing next week. Does anyone know any swimming classes in bangi? Pretty please leave a message/comment if you do..thanks!! =)

Facts Galore~

2010-05-21T06:20:00.000-07:00

Having sex can reduce fever because of the sweat produced. Sex is also a pain reliever, ten times more effective than Valium: immediately before orgasm, levels of the hormone oxytocin rise by five times, determining a huge release of endorphins. These chemicals calm pain, from a minor headache to arthritis or migraines, and with no secondary effects. Migraines also disappear because the pressure in the brain's blood vessels is lowered while we have sex. So now we see that actually, a woman's headache is rather a good reason for having sex, not against it.

Another reason to get hitched before internship! Wee!! =P

source: http://news.softpedia.com/news/16-Reasons-Why-Sex-Is-Good-for-Your-Helath-67663.shtml

So much oh so much....

2010-04-11T10:04:00.000-07:00

Salam....

So much to achieve by the end of this semester...

1. A Diploma in MD
2. To master all four swimming styles
3. To pass the black belt Taekwondo grading
4. To get married! HOHOHO
5. To get a posting near home (hopefully)
6. To get kids...eh dah dah, cukup cukup :P

Bismillahi tawakkaltu'alallah...Ganbatte nehhh!!!! ^___^

Haru biruuu hehehe

2010-02-02T11:06:00.000-08:00

My fiance made this video and posted it at Facebook on 2nd February 2010, 00.01am.

Macamana saya tak sayang dia? ^__^

The Carpathian Mountains

2010-01-15T12:39:00.000-08:00

The Carpathian Mountains are a chain of mountains that stretch from the Czech Republic to Slovakia, Romania, Poland, Hungary and Ukraine. The total length of the Carpathians is over 1500km, it's highest range being 8705 feet above sea level. Some of the people speak a rather unheard-of language such as Transcarpathian, while others remain using their respective mother tongues. Temperature ranges from as low as -15 celcius during winter, and 20 celcius in July (summer).

Amongst the many villages alongside, one of them is Slavske. This is the place where we spent our winter hols ^__^

To get to the destination, we had to take a train from Simferopol to Lviv which took us 26 hours HAHA imagine that! All our muscles were cramped and ached galore~

Initially the plan was to go skiing; however Allah had other plans, and so on the day we arrived the snow was starting to melt. So instead of skiing, we hopped on to the 2600m long cable car to get to the top of the mountain which stood 1230m above sea level.

The cable car ride upwards

A cottage that sits on on top of the mountain

The view from above MashaAllah was fantastic! Subhanallah *speechless*

We also had a few horse rides, and built a little snowman ^__^

Sometimes it felt like we were sooo close to the sun! Even two layers of gloves and thick socks weren't enough to counterfeit the frosty coldness.

The ride downwards

After the ride downwards, we strolled along the little bumpy roads and shopped at some souvenir stalls. The folks here were rather friendly and felt enthused to encounter such visitors from as far as Malaysia! Hohoho.

During our stay there we spent three nights at Fayno Cottage. It was a very small yet homey cottage, which not only has Disney Channel, but also a sauna! Pampering your body with the blazing sauna heat after a long cold day is sooo soothing I tell you..yippie!

After three nights spectating the sunrise and sunset between the mountains, we headed back to Lviv and spent a night at the Ukrainian Home Hostel; a very Europe-like hostel that rated highest at http://hostelbookers.com . We had a tour around the city; it reminded me most of Poland due to the similarity of its architecture elements.

The owner (Igor) and us

At the kitchen

At one of the souvenir stalls

The following day it was toodles for Lviv. Thank You Allah for the chance You gave us to explore something so spectacular.

Goodbye everyone! Till we meet again ^__^

Wassalam...

2009 End of Year Summary.

2010-01-06T01:21:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum...

So the first semester of my final years have actually ended (yikes!) and I am in the middle of the winter hols, and am trying to use it to the utmost fruitfullest before classes start. Flakes of snow has just started dribbling all over Crimea with a mean temperature of -5 celcius; hence the polar-hibernating-mode of most students.

Okay, this isn't actually in Crimea. This is somewhere on top of the Carpathian Mountains. InshaAllah details will be in the next post.

To begin with (actually, I don't know how to begin with..the hiatus has been so long!) I'll start by showing you some of this year's Eid's pictures. This year's event was rather simple, as only two batches of Malaysian students were left. Nonetheless, it also bridged the gap between all Muslim students worldwide.

Awk, newly-weds Iqbal-Sakiey and me

We also spent a night at the ambassador's (her cooking's are awesome! Taraf 5-star hotel gitu) and went to Auntie Rose's open-house. And yes, filled our little tummies to the max.

Some weeks later we spent the end of autumn by hiking up Red Cave and had a wee picnic nearby the waterfalls over there. And well wadya know - they have camels here in Ukraine! Hahaha.

2009 also marked a gloomy day for us Othman's too. For our beloved Maklang passed away after 2 years suffering IV stage of Colon Cancer. What made me shed tears the most was that she also made my hantaran decorations beforehand - "takut tak sempat nak buat nanti" katanya. Huhu. May Allah bless you among the mu'mineen my dearest Maklang. We will always miss you. And thank you so much for beautifying the house galore on my engagement day ;) .

Beloved Arwah Maklang & Me on the day I got engaged

Okay..so there you go with part I.

1st of November, 2009.

The whole of CSMU was startled with a shocking news. 3 weeks of quarantine holiday has been imposed to all public authorities and educational institutions nationwide. 3 weeks?! Uhuhuh. After the announcement, I stared at the wall, blank for like, almost an hour. Called mum, she insisted I fly back home (abah sponsor ticket! hehe). And so that was how the next events took place.

At first there was the 'Sirih Pulang ke Gagang' SMAPK Alumni Reunion - calling all ex-students from the very first to the latest batch. What made me a wee bit sad was that me and Mokcique were the only girls of my batch that came up (where were all the other kids?). To think that I had just arrived from Ukraine the night before, after nearly 13 hours of flight and two transits, and yet I still urged myself to come - ah, you do the calculation. Good thing I got to meet a lot of my teachers - they really did make my day, alhamdulillah ;)

Ah, yes. My first Raya at home, at my kampung, at long last (walaupun raye haji je)! After 6 very long years whoa. And to make things more momentous, it may be the last of me as a single lady (T_____T but hehehehehe :D)

Anisa, me and Ariff

Jolok rambutan! ngenge~

Nyummie nyummie nyum nyum!

Next comes the best part of all. Abah gave a green light to let me and mama visit Hani at Bandung! Yippie yeayeayeay~. We spent three nights at the Horizon Hotel, and spent one whole day shopping at Pasar Baru and the designer's outlets. The best thing was that I got to buy myself a burkhini - sangat murah okay di sini! Huahuahua~

Tengok-tengok kain

Me and Hani in front of her hostel

Mama and me <3

Oh yes and I am sooo into the Nasi Padang here..finger-licking good! Low in triglycerides too ^__^

So there goes my 3 weeks of so-called H1N1 hols. Spent it to the fullest, I believe!

Part II

Arrived Ukraine safely, alhamdulillah. To replace the missed classes, we had to attend them on saturdays. Not bad after all. But they did not erase winter hols from the calendar. Hence we had a week of winter hols, and so one day me and my friends thought of having a one-day trip to Dnipropetrovsky, a quite modern city that sits halfway between Kiev and Simferopol. It was rather tiring because we walked all day long soaked wet and cold after a 9-hours train-ride. Therefore not much pictures could be appreciated. On the other hand, it was the first time we celebrated New Year's eve in the train. It even stopped at the strike of 12, all lights went off, and from afar we could see fireworks coloring the midnight sky! Subhanallah, it was spectacular I tell you. Alhamdulillah ^___^

Something heartrending did come up before the end of 2009, I must say. Our beloved Ustaz, Dr. Sheikh A'lauddin, a Palestinian, passed away due to Chron's Disease. He was the 'ustaz' of my usrah, and he also used to give 'kuliyyah Jumaat' talks every friday evening. Dr. A'la was also a 'tahfeez', an imaam, and his Quranic recitations were sooo lovely MashaAllah. Recently he was rather preoccupied with his specialization in Cardiology, so we didn't really get to see much of Ustaz during his last days. Ustaz did leave a gem of his own; a 3 months old fetus in his wife's womb ;)

Alhamdulillah, I have no regets of 2009. Looking forward to a better 2010 and 1431 Hijriah, (and a better looking figure too hahaha :P) inshaAllah. Happy New Year everyone! ^__^

Busy as a beaver!

2009-12-04T21:39:00.000-08:00

Salam

Goodness, sorry people! Apologies for the verryyy BIG _______________________ gap. So much has been happening past the three months, and frankly speaking things have been rather hectic! Busy bee has indeed bitten the best out of me hoho. To cut things short, I have just arrived from home after a month's vacation due to the H1N1 quarantine imposed upon Ukraine which had all public authorities and educational institutions closed for three weeks. And now we're back on track!

Most readers (eceh macam banyak je) insisted upon a new post. Some even thought that this blog has found its D-day! Haha mane bole God Willing I want my kids to see the river that I have been cruising all along. Well as the Malay saying goes; tak menang tanganla! But insyaAllah the author will try to put up her utmost effort to fill in this verryyy BIG gap _____________ once the New Year Hols begin.

A sneak peek at what has been going around:

Till then, toodles! ;)

The Incredible Hunt

2009-09-13T05:19:00.000-07:00

Alhamdulillah, I have landed my feet on the grounds of Ukraine. Ramadhan is leaving us day by day, and in a weeks time, the whole world will be celebrating Eid Mubarak , insyaAllah. We have also come to the last 10 days of this holy month, where all Muslims would be in a hunt for the grand night of Lailatul-Qadr.

Narrated Abu Salama bin ‘Abdur-Rahman:

I asked Abu Said Al-Khudri, “Did you hear Allah’s Apostle talking about the Night of Qadr?” He replied in the affirmative and said, “Once we were in Itikaf with Allah’s Apostle in the middle ten days of (Ramadan) and we came out of it in the morning of the twentieth, and Allah’s Apostle- delivered a sermon on the 20th (of Ramadan) and said, ‘I was informed (of the date) of the Night of Qadr (in my dream) but had forgotten it. So, look for it in the odd nights of the last ten nights of the month of Ramadan. I saw myself prostrating in mud and water on that night (as a sign of the Night of Qadr). So, whoever had been in Itikaf with Allah’s Apostle should return for it.’ The people returned to the mosque (for Itikaf). There was no trace of clouds in the sky. But all of a sudden a cloud came and it rained. Then the prayer was established (they stood for the prayer) and Allah’s Apostle prostrated in mud and water and I saw mud over the forehead and the nose of the Prophet.

Retiring to a Mosque for the Remembrance of Allah. Book 3. Volume 33. Hadith 252

May we become one of the guests of this night, insyaAllah.

ps: am missing mummy's cookings! Huhuhu~

"You are most likely to die on..."

2009-07-29T04:20:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum

If you’re one of the constant, keen users of the world wide web, you’re most likely to notice the big immigration of users from friendster to facebook. My friendster account, for an instant, has been having cobwebs dangling for like, say, nearly a year. And the number of friends that I have in facebook has sky-rocketed over the sum of 800.

Come to ponder upon the thought, both act as social utilities that connect people around the globe, virtually. We could send comments/write on the ‘walls’, give messages, upload and share pictures, post shout-outs and statuses etc. Hence, why the big gap?

The upper edge that facebook has over friendster is its ‘power of notification’. Making announcements. Telling all your friends that you have commented on his status, and that someone has ‘liked’ your photo. That someone has also commented on a picture of your friend that you commented. Tagging pictures – a game that implicitly in a way increases the number of ‘photos of you’ that you have on facebook. Thereby, no more tedious uploading is needed. Leave it to those who have nothing to do. And uploading is way easier and twice faster.

To add to that, you could also instantly send photos to your account via mobile. And tag them at once. Next, hey presto! All you know is that a bunch of people are already conversing over the phenomenon (this happened to me in real life on the day of my neighbour’s solemnization. I was sitting beside an aunt of hers who had Blackberry; she took pictures of her niece, sent them to facebook and tagged them there and then. I figure it took only 10 seconds more or less).

Via facebook, you could send your friend some 'duit raya' and get a piece of Secret Recipe's Yogurt Strawberry Cheesecake for an exchange. And get yourself a Swatch! Hahaha.

Next comes the addictive games that they have. Most guys would be recruiting their members to join their family on Mafia Wars, and the girls would try gain points for fame in Sorority Life. Others may just be harvesting cucumbers to collect as much coins in Barn Buddies, and the prudent ones would ‘Scrabble’ world-widely as much as they could.

Rest assured if you find yourself guilty, you could always join this group : I hate Facebook because it stops me from doing my homework!!!

Still, the boon is there. You could simply announce your wedding and invite guests effortlessly (though I’d prefer snail-mail/cards). Ask people to join a cause/campaign. Write a suicidal note (just to gain attention) or a wedding registry.

And don’t forget the myriad quizzes that people make, to an extent that you could even ‘know the way how you die’ - duhh!!!

Ps: This is somewhat a ‘reply’ on Jamil’s latest post. I, too, am one of the victims hypnotized by facebook!

Food? Think Twice.

2009-07-03T08:05:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum

Yes, the girl is back. For approximately two months, insyaAllah. Ah nothing spells like home than a jolly good proper dinner (yes I haven't had a really proper one for some three/four weeks, thanks to the mind-goggling adrenaline-pumping caffeine-stipulating five exam papers) and non-stop tv series plus movies oooww yes.

It sure does feel good to be home.

At this time of the moment, the thoughts of pursuing my second degree abroad, once being my aim and dream, is no longer that vivid. Or apparent. Whatever.

However, it saddens me though to grasp the irrefutable truth that I have been putting some weight past this one month. Ohoho. Why, how couldn't I, for those spooky exams make evening jogs seem sooo at fault. And then mum wants me to see the tailor to measure the ups and downs for the upcoming events, raya etc. So you could see clearly how a little part of me is a ~~wee bit~~ under strain.

Ah, never mind. Malaysia spells food, hence let us hunt for it to the max! :P

This two months would be pretty hectic.

1. I have approximately ten wedding invitations that need attending
2. Five weeks of practicals at Kajang Hospital
3. ~~Black-belt Taekwondo Grading~~ (don't think this could squeeze in with abahs' frequent irregular outstations)
4. Slash down those extra kilos'! With whatever modus operandi applicable
5. Wedding preparations [mak andam + warna baju + photographer] aiyoyooo
6. Diet
7. Exercise
8. Dah dah..stop stop (nampak sangat pressure)

heeeeee =D

On the other hand, if anyone has any recommendations regarding mak andams, photographers, wedding gowns etc, feel free to leave a comment. I'd highly appreciate it. Thanks! ;)

Drama Nur Kasih

2009-06-17T22:27:00.000-07:00

I like this story heaps! Sangat best ok! ;)

Would like to promote everyone to watch it (tv3 should pay me for this) ngengenge~

Sebelum Akad Terpatri...

2009-06-07T01:22:00.000-07:00

Salam. Got this from iluvislam.com. May it benefit us all insyaAllah ;)

Tinta Buat Bakal Suamiku

Assalammualaikum wrt wbt.

Buatmu,

Bakal suamiku.

Entah angin apa yang membuai hari ini, membuatkanku begitu berani untuk mencoretkan sesuatu untuk dirimu yang tidak pernah kukenali. Aku sebenarnya tidak pernah berniat untuk memperkenalkan diriku kepada sesiapa. Apatah lagi meluahkan sesuatu yang khusus buatmu sebelum tiba masanya. Kehadiran seorang lelaki yang menuntut sesuatu yang aku jaga rapi selama ini semata-mata buatmu. Itulah hatiku dan cintaku, membuatkan aku tersedar dari lenaku yang panjang.

Aku telah dididik ibu semenjak kecil agar menjaga maruah dan mahkota diriku kerana Allah telah menetapkannya untuk suamiku, iaitulah dirimu suatu hari nanti. Kata ibu, tanggungjawab ibubapa terhadap anak perempuan ialah menjaga dan mendidiknya sehingga seorang lelaki mengambil alih tanggungjawab itu dari mereka. Jadi, kau telah wujud dalam diriku sejak dulu lagi. Sepanjang umurku ini.

Aku menutup pintu hatiku daripada mana-mana lelaki kerana aku tidak mahu membelakangimu. Aku menghalang diriku dari mengenali mana-mana lelaki kerana aku tidak mahu mengenali lelaki lain selainmu, apatah lagi memahami mereka. Kerana itulah aku sedaya kudrat yang lemah ini membatasi pergaulanku dengan bukan mahramku. Aku sering sahaja berasa tidak selamat diperhatikan lelaki. Bukanlah aku menyangka buruk terhadap mereka, tetapi lebih baik aku berjaga-jaga kerana contoh banyak di depan mata. Apabila terpaksa berurusan dengan mereka, akan aku buat ‘expressionles face’ dan ‘cool’. Akan aku palingkan wajahku daripada lelaki yang asyik merenungku ataupun cuba menegurku. Aku seboleh-bolehnya melarikan pandanganku daripada ajnabi kerana pesan Sayyidatina ‘Aisyah R.A ;

“sebaik-baik wanita ialah yang tidak memandang dan dipandang”

Aku tidak ingin dipandang cantik oleh lelaki. Biarlah aku hanya cantik di matamu. Apa guna aku menjadi idaman ramai lelaki sedangkan aku hanya boleh menjadi milikmu seorang. Aku tidak merasa bangga menjadi rebutan lelaki bahkan aku merasa terhina diperlakukan sebegitu seolah-olah aku ini barang yang boleh dimiliki sesuka hati. Aku juga tidak mahu menjadi punca kejatuhan seseorang lelaki yang dikecewakan lantaran terlalu mengharapkan sesuatu yang tidak dapat kuberikan.

Bagaimana akan aku jawab di hadapan Allah kelak andai disoal?

Adakah itu sumbanganku kepada manusia selama hidup di muka bumi?

Kalau aku tidak ingin kau memandang perempuan lain, aku dululah yang perlu menundukkan pandanganku. Aku harus memperbaiki kelemahan dan menghias peribadiku kerana itulah yang dituntut Allah. Kalau aku inginkan lelaki yang baik menjadi suamiku, aku juga perlu menjadi perempuan yang baik.

Bukankah Allah telah menjanjikan perempuan yang baik itu untuk lelaki yang baik?

Tidak dapat aku nafikan, sebagai remaja aku memiliki perasaan untuk menyayangi dan disayangi. Namun, setiap kali perasaan itu datang, setiap kali itulah aku mengingatkan diriku bahawa aku perlu menjaga perasaan itu kerana ia semata-mata untukmu. Allah telah memuliakan seorang lelaki yang bakal menjadi suamiku untuk menerima hati dan perasaanku yang suci. Bukan hati yang menjadi lebihan lelaki lain. Lelaki itu berhak mendapat kasih yang tulen, bukan yang telah dibahagi-bahagikan.

Diriku yang sememangnya lemah ini diuji Allah apabila seorang lelaki secara tidak sengaja mahu berkenalan denganku. Aku secara keras menolak, pelbagai dalil aku dikemukakan, tetapi dia tidak mahu mengalah. Lelaki itu tidak hanya berhenti di situ. Dia sentiasa menghubungi dan menggangguku. Aku berasa amat tidak tenteram, seolah-olah seluruh hidupku yang ceria selama ini telah dirampas dariku. Aku tertanya-tanya adakah aku berada di tebing kebinasaan. Aku beristighfar memohon keampunan-Nya. Aku juga berdoa agar Dia melindungi diriku daripada sebarang kejahatan. Kehadirannya membuatkan aku banyak memikirkanmu. Kau kurasa seolah-olah wujud bersamaku. Di mana sahaja aku berada, akal sedarku membuat perhitungan denganmu. Aku tahu lelaki yang melamarku itu bukan dirimu. Malah aku yakin pada gerak hati, ‘woman intuition’ku yang mengatakan lelaki itu bukan kau.

Aku bukanlah seorang gadis yang cerewet dalam memilih pasangan hidup. Siapalah diriku ini untuk memilih berlian sedangkan aku hanya sebutir pasir yang wujud di mana-mana. Tetapi aku juga punyai keinginan seperti gadis lain, dilamar lelaki yang bakal dinobat sebagai ahli syurga, memimpinku ke arah tuju yang satu. Tidak perlu kau memiliki wajah seindah Nabi Yusuf A.S yang mampu mendebarkan jutaan gadis untuk membuatku terpikat. Andainya kaulah jodohku yang tertulis di Luh Mahfuz, Allah pasti mencampakkan rasa kasih di dalam hatiku, jua hatimu kali pertama kita berpandangan. Itu janji Allah. Akan tetapi, selagi kita tidak diikat dengan ikatan yang sah, selagi itu jangan kau zahirkan perasaanmu itu kepadaku kerana kau masih tidak mempunyai hak untuk berbuat begitu. Juga jangan kau lampaui batasan yang telah ditetapkan syara’. Aku takut perlakuanmu itu akan memberi impak yang tidak baik dalam kehidupan kita kelak. Permintaanku tidak banyak, cukuplah dirimu yang diinfak seluruhnya pada mencari redha Ilahi.

Aku akan berasa amat bertuah andai dapat menjadi tiang seri ataupun sandaran perjuanganmu. Bahkan aku amat bersyukur pada Ilahi kiranya akulah yang ditakdirkan meniup semangat juangmu, menghulurkan tanganku untuk berpaut sewaktu rebah atau tersungkur di medan yang dijanjikan Allah dengan kemenangan atau syahid itu. Akan aku kesat darah dari lukamu dengan tanganku sendiri. Itulah impianku. Aku pasti berendam airmata darah andainya engkau menyerahkan seluruh cintamu padaku. Bukan itu yang aku impikan. Cukuplah kau mencintai Allah dengan sepenuh hatimu. Kerana dengan mencintai Allah kau akan mencintaiku kerana-Nya. Cinta itu lebih abadi dari cinta insan biasa. Moga cinta itu juga yang akan mempertemukan kita kembali di syurga.

Aku juga tidak ingin dilimpahi kemewahan dunia. Cukuplah dengan kesenangan yang telah diberikan ibubapaku dulu. Apa guna kau menimbun harta untuk kemudahanku sekiranya harta itu membuatkan kau lupa pada tanggungjawabmu terhadap agamamu. Aku tidak akan sekali-kali bahagia melihatmu begitu. Biarlah kita hidup di bawah jaminan Allah sepenuhnya. Itu lebih bermakna bagiku.

Dariku,

Bakal isterimu

Semakin lama, semakin sayang, semakin rindu.

2009-05-30T08:02:00.000-07:00

Salam.

Yesterday I had a very weird dream. Mum and dad were smooching in front of us ala-ala Gossip Girl's Blair and Chuck!! Hoho serious takkan buat sedemikian rupa depan anak-anak nanti (takut derang terus pengsan tengok parents sendiri aahaha :P).

As the title speaks for itself, what else, if not, for the pre-exam homesickness.

Eh yang nie tak......takk!!! Heeeeeee :P :P

25 days left for Malaysia!! InsyaAllah ^__^

(and 8 days left for the finals T__T)

Doakan saya!! ;)

Cikgu?

2009-05-15T13:39:00.001-07:00

Salam...

Selamat Hari Guru buat para pendidik yang telah banyak mengerah keringat mengajar saya yang sangat degil ini. On top of the list, of course, is my mum and dad.

Jasa kalian tidak terbalas, mudah-mudahan sentiasa dalam rahmat Allah hendaknya.

(am I attempting to make a non-formal PMR letter? apekah~)

And of course this dedication goes to the best english debate teachers the world has yet to acknowledge - Madam Khairul Husna and Madam Zuraidah. You guys are such a sport!

HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY! ^__^

I have two weeks to cross out before the D-day of the finals appear. Uhuhuh

And yes, I am feeling a wee bit stressed out. Read: PEER PRESSURE.

It has nothing to do with the competitive edge. Seriously. I could cope with that one.

But what bores me much is the none other 'ko-ni-takde-keje-laen-mengumpat-ke' chitchats of those - say, uncivilized homosapiens?

Takde keje lain ke haa?

InsyaAllah this coming summer, 5 pairs of my batch will get hitched. And yes, I meant FIVE pairs of MY batch.

Alhamdulillah, I feel so thankful for them. Who does not?

However, it hurts so much when people bombard you with questions such as "ko nie da tunang takmo kawen ke?" "tahan ke tunang lame-lame?" "siannye, da tunang tapi org laen kawen dulu"

.......HELLO!!!!!

(entry dalam bahasa melayu tanda malas nak mengedit dan sangat marah)

Tolonglah faham. Ibubapa lain-lain. Pendapat lain-lain. Situasi pun lain-lain. Bukannye taknak, tapi belum dapat greenlight untuk nikah tahun ini, takkan nak kami bernikah kat Siam kot? Takdak ibubapa semua, hadoiii...

Kadang-kadang rasa terkilan pun ada juga. Bukannya depa paham apa yang terjadi. Huhu. Mungkin sebab kami nak sangat, sebab itu Allah suruh sabar lagi. Mungkin ada hikmah yang sangat besar di sebalik dugaan sepanjang tempoh pertunangan ini, insyaAllah.

Hanya pada Allah tempat mengadu, tempat meluahkan perasaan. Dia Maha Tahu.

Dua-tiga hari lately saya kurang sihat. Tunang buatkan seperiuk bubur ayam (rasenye baru 2nd time die buat bubur) dengan penuh kasih sayang. Alhamdulillah ;)

(tp dlm gmbr xnmpk sgtla plak aymnye..)

Sama-sama kita sabar ye awk!! Sabar itu indah, sesungguhnya Allah bersama dengan orang yang sabar. Bersangka baik dengan Allah pasti tak mengecewakan!

Ameeenn... ;)

Mama

2009-05-10T18:36:00.000-07:00

Buat mama tersayang, dan semua mama-mama di dunia...

A tribute to all mums in the world...

Happy Mother's day! And yes, everyday is indeed a mummy's day...

I love you heaps, and will always do...

Would do anything insyaAllah, even if it the best things in the world need to be sacrificed...

Tak sabar nak balik!!!

Syndrome NABAKA

2009-05-04T13:45:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum...

I think the syndrome is 'exacerbating', again.

aaaAAAaaaAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaa (baca ala-ala tarzan lagi skalik)

Uhuhu bila cuti nak datang je, mesti syndrome tu mai balik.

Nak buat lagu mana nie?

On the other hand, I have difficulty uploading videos to the blog. Any ideas why this is happening?

Am wishing to share some video clips I adore.

left: momo; right: mimi (tiada kaitan dgn cik aimi rahman :P) they came into the family past a week after woman's day. Became my sleeping companion together with koko ( panda teddy bear yang agak besar untuk dimuatkan dalam gambar). As weird as it sounds, I'd feel odd waking up in the morning without them beside my pillow.

ps: ada satu lagi dalam family, bobo the gray elephant. tapi dia tak tidur dengan saya, dia tidur bilik lain, hostel lain. dia lelaki, jadi kenalah tidur dengan lelaki juga :P

pps: sebenarnya momo pun lelaki, tapi belum mumayyiz and baligh lagi, jadi boleh tidur dengan saya. kekeke

As Free As Could Be

2009-05-01T14:45:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum...

Within a month's time, I'd be in a state of 'white-dermographism dominant', palpitating, answering questions of the final state exam.

aaaaAAAaaaAAAaaaaa!!! (baca gaya ala-ala tarzan)

Nonetheless, it implicitly signifies of how time flies fast, and that in two months time, I'd be sniffing the fresh air of Bandar Baru Bangi once again, sipping teh-tarik at mamak stalls and dipping roti canai in kuah dal. *drooling* InsyaAllah.

*grinning wide*

...oh, and also the fact that I have yet a year to digest and comprehend all 'medico-logies'. Uhuhuh.

So what is all the fuss about being free?

I am now free from holding any posts in the KUU Board (Persatuan Pelajar Melayu Ukraine); Ketua Puteri, to be exact.

It is as if I could finally shrug off a big burden that has been hunchbacking me all along.

It also emblems more quality time with those around me and close at heart. My oh my, I do miss those precious moments.

Come to think about it, the word housemanship already sends shivers down my spine. It haunts me so much, I dare not try to foresee myself being in any of the HO's shoes I'd once seen during the previous practical postings at Serdang Hospital.

A senior of mine cum wife to a house officer, often wails out her sincere feelings of how lonely the atmosphere becomes when on-calls predominates her hubby's daily schedule. Bukan setakat deringan telefon, sms pun susah nak balas. Truth be said, this, I fear pretty badly.

Couldn't the life of a HO get any gloomier? *read this to understand more*

Practiced making sushi with my roommates. Don't think such chances would appear once the critical period ticks on *sigh*

ps: My mum doesn't read my blog, but it's her birthday anyway, so a very big HAPPY BIRTHDAY goes out for you mama! And Happy Wedding Anniversary too. Akak berbangga menjadi anak bunting pelamin kekeke :P Jangan sedih-sedih sebab abah terpaksa outsation ^__^.

Sabar Sarah...

2009-04-13T12:30:00.000-07:00

Salam

It hurts to know that some people just couldn't appreciate all the work you've done. They believe that everyone is perfect - of course not! These people may be just a minority, and I couldn't care less to know who they are. Well, whoever it is, if you think you're good enough, go get a grip and try walk in my shoes.

I have been silent from the blogosphere for nearly two months, and yes, I have been pretty busy lately. Some big events are coming around, me becoming one of the important committee members. Sometimes you think that the workload is too much and stressful - but at some moments, you just feel thankful that these stuff are restraining you from thinking about the unnecessary (you know what I mean).

Sometimes, I feel that I have transformed into a new me - a 'me' that couldn't tackle tight schedules. Had it been in SMAPK, I wouldn't be fussing this much! Why oh why?

I do agree that at some point, SMAPK taught me how to juggle my priorities right, how to manage time with care. I think I fear this new me. Uhuhu~

Nonetheless, I am trying to fulfill each and every second as good as I could. I am attending Oriental Dance classes currently, twice a week, and taekwondo classes weekly. The other days would do with a jog in the park.

Ah, been trying out new recipes too. On weekends-lah. Hey, it's crucial what ;)

Okie dokie. Opthalmology notes coming up. Cataract oo cataract.

ps: am envying Hani who's currently at home for a short break

pps: The univ should have it's own 'girls-only' pool. Mana aci lelaki je dapat swim! Nak swimming jugak!! :P

ppps: credits to Dayah for these lovely 'digital-badges-whatever-you-call-them'. Got them from her blog. Hehe

Ready yet, si belangkas?

2009-03-05T05:59:00.000-08:00

This is an excerpt from iluvislam.com. Copy-pasted it for the benefit of all.

SERUAN BUAT SI BELANGKAS
www.iluvislam.com
Fatimah Syarha Mohd Noordin
editOr: arisHa27

Menyorot dahsyatnya mitos cinta meracuni pemikiran generasi muda hari ini, pelbagai maksiat menular di sana-sini. Pemuda meratah dara sesuka hati. Gadis hilang harga diri. Anak pungut merata-riti. Ah, sekotor inikah cinta anak muda? Tidak!

Cinta itu tidak kotor bahkan suci sekudus embun pagi. Tangan manusialah yang mengotorinya. Aduhai pemuda-pemudi yang sedang hangat bercinta! Bukankah Allah menyediakan jalan halal buat menyuburkan cinta yang sedang mekar antaramu dengan si dia? Kenapa tidak nikah saja? Boleh khalwat lama-lama.

“Ingat nikah tu senang?!” Mungkin ini persoalannya. Mungkin ini yang membelenggu pemikiran anak muda yang sedang bercinta. Samada jawapannya senang atau susah, setiap pasangan yang sudah jatuh hati perlu ada niat untuk memilih jalan halal lagi diberkati ini. Niat yang bersih berperanan mengawal diri agar terhindar dari lembah zina terkutuk dan segala perkara yang menghampirinya. Apa yang dinamakan cinta lelaki dan perempuan asing hanya boleh dinikmati selepas berumah-tangga. Ingat tu!

Kunasihatkan diriku jua dirimu hai muda-mudi, Dalam urusan jodoh, apapun keputusan buatlah sebagaimana yang dianjurkan oleh syarak dengan jalan istikharah dan musyawarah (berbincang) . Andai di sana nampak keserasian, usah terlalu fikirkan masalah, berfikirlah dengan optimis. Ambil langkah yang diizinkan Allah seterusnya iaitu dengan berkhitbah (bertunang) dan saling setia pada janji syarak yang di bina.

Awas! Hindari segala perkara yang menghampiri zina lagi tidak diredhai-Nya. Khusus buat pemuda-pemudi yang sudah jatuh cinta, Dengarilah kalamku seterusnya istimewa buatmu. Yang masih tak meletakkan nikah sebagai prioriti sekarang, teruskan belajar atau berkerja atau mengejar cita-cita.

Seringkali bila ditanya pada syabab (pemuda) tentang kenapa tak segera berzaujah (menikah), mereka amat risaukan masih tak mempunyai pekerjaan tetap. Sedangkan ada hadis yang menyuruh agar menyegerakan nikah bagi yang sudah bertemu calonnya. Pemuda selalunya bimbang jika tak mampu memberi nafkah kepada bidadarinya dan seluruh isi rumahnya. Faktor ekonomi amatlah membebankan benak mereka. Betul kan ya syabab?

Kerisauan ini lumrah. Ia lahir dari kesedaran bahawa perkahwinan itu bukan suka-suka tapi penuh tanggung-jawab. Sesetengah orang membuat perhitungan hidup secara matematik, contohnya jika seorang memerlukan biaya RM1000 maka dua orang memerlukan RM2000. Hidup sendiripun sukar dibiaya apatah lagi hidup orang lain? Faktor ini membuatkan pemuda takut berkahwin. Gambaran seperti ini semakin memberat apabila hidup dikuasai berhala bernama materialisme. Apatah lagi masyarakat terlalu meletakkan ukuran materialisme dalam menjalani kehidupan. Al-Quran mengecam keyakinan materialisme seperti ini dan menyuruh kita berfikiran optimis. Lihatlah Allah memberi berita gembira berupa kecukupan kehidupan bagi pasangan yang berkahwin:

“Dan nikahkanlah orang yang sendirian di antara kamu, dan orang-orang yang layak nikah di antara hamba-hamba sahayamu yang perempuan. Jika mereka miskin, Allah akan memampukan mereka dengan kurnia-Nya, dan Allah Maha Luas pemberian-Nya lagi Maha Mengetahui.” (An-Nur:32).

Nah, Allah telahpun memberi jaminan! Jaminan siapa yang lebih patut dipercayai??

Umar Al-Khattab, sahabat agung, pernah berkata sebagaimana dikutip dari al-Qurtubhi:

“Saya sangat takjub dan hairan dengan orang-orang yang tidak mahu menikah kerana takut miskin, dan tidak mahu mencari kekayaan melalui perkahwinan, padahal Allah telah menjaminnya.”

Nabi Muhammad s.a.w. juga memberi gambaran yang praktikal. Dalam sebuah riwayat dari Abu Hurairah r.a.:

“Makanan dua orang dapat mencukupi tiga orang, dan makanan tiga orang dapat mencukupi empat orang.” (HR Bukhori dan Muslim).

Tidak hairanlah Ibnu Mas’ud pernah berkata,

“Carilah kekayaan dan rezeki melalui pernikahan.”

Kemudian beliau membaca firman Allah dalam surah al-Nur, ayat 32. Apalagi, sama-sama hapuskan berhala materialisme dalam hati dan fikiran.

Buat kaum Hawa, yakin dan percayalah pada insan yang telah ditunjukkan Allah dalam istikharahmu walau apapun keadaannya pada masa ini, asalkan baik agamanya. Samada dia masih belajar atau masih bertukar-tukar kerja, percayalah padanya. Buat syabab, rezeki Allah amat luas, jangan dirisaukan sangat. Walaupun sesuatu pekerjaan itu tidak terpandang di sisi masyarakat contohnya bekerja sendiri namun terakam mulia dalam hadis Rasulullah s.a.w. Beliau bersabda:

“Pekerjaan yang terbaik adalah usaha seseorang dengan tangannya sendiri dan semua penjual beli yang baik.” (HR Ahmad, Baihaqi dan lain-lain).

Jika kerisauan untuk menikah disebabkan faktor orang tua, berbincanglah dengan mereka penuh hikmah. Hati mereka milik Allah, dipegang Allah dan boleh dilunakkan oleh Allah dalam sekelip mata. Ianya menuntut doa, kesungguhan dan keberanian. Orang tua akan cair jua dengan kebaikan kerana merekalah insan yang paling inginkan kebaikan untuk seorang anak.

Percayalah! Jika terubat segala kerisauan dan tertanam kukuh sebuah keyakinan maka laksanakanlah khitbah (pertunangan) . Selama tempoh khitbah, berkongsilah apa yang dirasakan mustahak dan tidak terlalu kerap berhubung untuk menjaga kesucian ikatan. Tempoh itu sesungguhnya amat menguji. Pastikan ikatan itu terjaga dari kelalaian dan segala perbuatan yang menghampiri zina. Laksanakanlah ikatan dengan mana yang paling memudahkan lelaki. Aisyah r.a. menjelaskan,

“Sesungguhnya di antara keberkatan wanita ialah kemudahan peminangannya dan kemudahan maharnya.” (HR. Ahmad).

Oh, kaum Hawa! Tidakkah kamu mahu menjadi wanita yang berkat? Oh, mudah kahwin itu rupanya jika ikut agama! Apa tunggu lagi wahai yang dah berpunya? Pilihlah untuk berkahwin. Takutlah pada Allah melebihi takutmu pada segala persoalan di benakmu. Yakinlah pada Allah. Berdoalah pada-Nya agar dipermudahkan nikah buatmu.

“Wahai para pemuda, siapa yang mampu, berkahwinlah! Sesungguhnya ia menundukkan pandangan dan menjaga kemaluan. Siapa yang tidak mampu maka berpuasalah.” (HR Bukhori).

p/s : bersegeralah " mendirikan masjid " kerana ia memberi ketenangan hati.

hint: am wishing mama abah may bump into this article *wink*wink*

Eurotrip Part II: Scotland

2009-02-14T10:51:00.000-08:00

Salam...

On the 17th of January 2009, we woke up as early as 530am to get ready for the 4 hrs 59 minutes (based on the GPS) journey heading to Sterling, Scotland. The initial plan was to visit Holyrood Palace (which actually wasn't THAT fascinating..so never judge the internet from it's pictures haha), but pakteh stopped at a halt after suddenly spotting Celtic FC Stadium from afar (you see pakteh is a very keen fan of football and would snap photo's of any football stadium in sight).

So...tada!! Dedicated for Celtic Fans out there :P

After a few snapshots (oh yes, pakteh and ameerul took photo's with the Club Manager too you know) we headed to Holyrood Palace.

At first we thought of going straight to Stirling Castle. However night was approaching and the scenery wasn't that fab, plus the li'l kids were tired and hungry and crying (and yes I feared the possibility of a sudden 'weird' image emerging in the photos kalo tangkap gambar kat castle time2 senja nie) so we returned back to Travelodge Hotel and decided to go out early the next morning for the photo-shooting session in front of the castle.

And next it was Aviemore and the Cairngorm Mountains!! At first we went to the peak, but it was freeezingly chilling and we could hardly even move our feet! Jalan lambat macam kura-kura. So we decided to go to a spot a wee bit lower where lot's of kids and ski-boarding novicers were skiing and snow-sledging. I did feel a bit jealous because the guys get to snow-board and we just get to...snow-sledge. Takpalaa..depa snow-board pun asyik jatuh ja kehkehkeh :P

Ameerul ambil wudhu' guna air salji..sejuk gileee

The third day was the one that kept me nervous the most..for biiznillah, I got the chance to visit my childhood house, nursery, and school! Not many people could afford to do such a thing..and for that I feel so thankful, Alhamdulillah..

Yup, this was my home-sweet-home nearly two decades back.

And yes, I learnt my Abc and 1 2 3 kat sinilah...

Park Place Primary School

Now we're gonna see abah's PhD school. Dundee University, that is.

The name of the street where my house stood.

Later we drove off to St. Andrews, a place known for its infamous golf course. Pakteh bawak mai golf set semata-mata nak posing kat sini tau :P

Our next stop was Edinburgh, the capital of Scotland. There were lots of souvenir shops (tapi xleh bargain sgt pun), hence we did some souvenir-hunting.

The following day we climbed up the hills for some photo-capturing outside of Edinburgh Castle.

After that it was already byebye Scotland waaaaaaa~~ T_T

Scotland opened my eyes to Travelodge - an economic-wise, affordable hotel-chain found nearly everywhere in UK, and yet the rooms were super-duper nice!!

At this moment I still miss Scotland heaps huhu...

Nak pegi lagie!!

Eurotrip Part I: Nottingham

2009-02-09T11:24:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum...

I know it's been a week since I turned 23, but somehow it feels somewhat odd to comprehend and digest the whole fact. It's like there's a little feeling that makes you believe you're still 22. Still, a year difference couldn't possibly be that big, could it?

Okay, okay, let's get back on track.

Alhamdulillah me and my friend Achot safely arrived at Luton London Airport on Friday, 9th January at 8.05pm (10 minutes earlier than scheduled) after a 16-hours non-stop Simferopol-Kiev train ride, and the temperature outside was cold (approximately 12 celcius) though not that chillingly cold compared to the -1 celcius breeze of Kiev. Upon arrival, I heard DSLR snapshots from afar...

Well what do you know, pakteh just bought a DSLR!! Marsya and Ameerul also tagged along with a video-cam (hamboi hi-tech sungguh depa) and recorded my few early steps around. Very-very touchinglaaaa~~~

We arrived some what 2 hours 15 minutes later, and makteh served nasik lemak; a very good start for a very hungry me (for I only munched a few sandwhiches through out the whole day in Kiev). By the way in the car pakteh showed me how the GPS functioned and I had to admit that I was a wee bit jakon yet awed at such a genius tiny invention. Malaysia surely should develop this system at haste and approachable at all rural and urban areas.

The following day we went ice-skating at the city centre. It was my first try, and I DONT think I'd have another one . For my steps were so bad, I just can't let my hands off the rails, and at some moments I had to call the coach for help!! Malu je kat Marsya yang memang terer skating huhu. But still, tak cuba tak tahu la kan? Sekarang dah tahu BAGUSLAH :P

After the skate, me and makteh went hunting for a pair of boots for me, because the one before was torn and couldn't resist water anymore. After a very looong search, this was my pick!

A red, flower-patched Barrots boots which was on sale for 4 pounds (tapi kat children's dept size 4 :P).

And next it was ronda-ronda Notts lah ape lagii!!

The following day we went sightseeing and also 'visited' my house when I was...one day old.

Yup my parents and me lived here when dad did his Masters in Civil Eng at Notts University.

The river that lay behind the house. Perhaps they used to baby-pram me here in the evenings.

I also got to visit Marsya and Aida's school and nursery. Seriously it was just like my school two decades back!! How I sooo felt the urge to become a kid back again huhu.

Next we had a peak at the place where I was born: Queen's Medical Centre.

And also abah's former Master's school...

Pakteh also bought me to see Nottingham Castle. Luckily it was free of charge for Nottingham residents, so I got to save some pennies for myself :)

The following day we went to car-boot sale!! Woke up early in the morning; as early birds get to get the biggest catch. However not many 'car-boots' were open as it was winter. It reminded me of the days I used to buy story books in bulks!! Mane taknye satu buku cost 20pence je sape takmo huhu.

I got myself (another) pair of boots, a story book, and a jumper. Bet if it was summer I'd be buying more.

Noon came and we headed to Junction 24; East Midlands Designer Outlet Factory.

..and I got myself two winter-coats (padahal tinggal satu kali winter je lagi before leaving for good insyaAllah..tp dah murah takleh resistlaa!! hehe)

End of Part I..will come back with updates of Part II: Scotland shortly!! InsyaAllah ^__^

A year wiser

2009-02-03T12:21:00.001-08:00

Assalamualaikum...

apple harvest pound cake with caramel glaze 'die' buat hehe...sedaappp!!!

...Yes I've turned 23!! Yesterday (2nd Feb) to be precise. But I still feel like I'm 18 (eh perasannyer :P).

My darling buddies also threw me a surprise birthday party! And it was really surprising because...they celebrated it a day before!! Huahuahua :P

Updates of my euro-trip are still in progress...for I have hundreds of pictures and 'auditioning' each single photo isn't that easy, plus my cycles are a wee bit busy at the moment.

Doa saya mudah-mudahan amalan kita semua diberkati Allah..ameeenn...^__^

Tagged again! 'foto-o-me'

2008-12-27T22:32:00.000-08:00

Assalam'laikum..been tagged by Balqis. Well dear Bal, this post is especially for you..here you go!! ;)

1) Do you think you’re hot?
In some ways. Hehe.

2) Upload favourite pictures of yourself.
3) Why do you like these pictures?

I get to know how I look like 2 decades ago.

I love that red snowcap. Macam besar je untuk saye. Hehe.

Kakak mithali :P

I like the colour blend. It'd be more perfect if abah and mama were in the picture.

A candid picture taken when we were giggling. Candid photos show the real you :)

The Prodigy board members, all smiling gleefully. We were so relieved that at long last alhamdulillah the magazine was done.

On the EuroStar train to Zurich. Captured by Atique. I like the reflection of me on the window.

Eh alamak ni bukan gambar sayelaa!! Hehehe. But I'd love to have a picture like this in the future (bertudungla of course) *wink*wink*

4) When was the last time you ate pizza?
Ermm a month back I think. But my roommate will be baking one this eve insyaAllah. Yippee!!

5) The last song you listened to?
Zamilooni - Native Deen (the one playing when you read my blog).

6) What are you doing right now besides this?
I've got piles of ONG notes and books that need reading infront of me. Haha.

7) What name would you prefer besides yours?
Mohd Ismail Hamzah? Ooopsss :P :P ..okay okay, that would be 'beside' mine, not 'besides', hehe. I like the name Marsha Qistina though. Thought it'd be a nice name for a kid. But then I found out that Liza Hanim named her daughter the same name too *__* tiru oranggg

8) Who are the next people you will tag?

9) Who is number 1?
My 4th sis who's a photo-edit geek and a blog-o-maniac.

10) Say something about number 2
My ex-g3nx-Smapk-mate, currently studying medicine in USIM. He blogs good I tell you (Jamil you should thank me for promoting your blog haha :P).

11) Introduce number 3
He blogs most about family issues, relationships and religious matters. Already has his own family :)

12) How about number 4?
Tatau sebab tatau. Hehe.

Guess I'm done. Need to face the books again!! My exam is on 8th Jan insyaAllah. Do pray that we'd pass with flying colors :)

ps: It's Awal Muharam today, and Gaza is again, burning. Don't forget to pray for the safety of our Palestinian brother and sisters...

Sarah si pemalas update blog :P

2008-12-10T11:07:00.001-08:00

Assalamualaikum..Eid Mubarak brothers and sisters!!

Well, well now..if it wasn't for the sudden post (yes, yes it's true I have been labeled Sarah si pemalas update blog ngenge) but seriously, my fingertips couldn't jot in any new thoughts at all. I blame myself having read less fictional books (they help cultivate our imaginary thinking you know) and do pardon the i-don't-know-if-you-realize-my-vocabs-are-getting-poor [mode]. Not that I couldn't think of any..but the writer's cap didn't really want to switch itself on. Huhu.

I guess it's no use of blaming the weather because up to now, since my first year in Ukraine, this has been the 'warmest' winter ever. For at some days it'd reach 24 celcius (can you believe that?) and rarely would the wind be as cold as 2 celcius. Yes, no excuse of 'sejukla saye malas nak tulis' [mode].

However, some weird events did dwell upon me this past one month. One of them being my nasty mood swings. I guess it's no harm in talking about it because it's physiological and we're all grown-ups and most peopling reading my blog (if there is any :P) are medical students cum doctor-to-be's. Anyway yes I am referring to the none other PMS (premenstrual syndrome). It got into me so severe that at times I'd be munching bars of chocolates (snickers, twix, kitkat) and a box of ferrerro rocher and they didin't last longer than 3 days! Huhu. And to add to that, I didn't want the chocolates self-purchased - I wanted them to be bought by SOMEONE else. There and then. Ya Rabbiiiii *__*

Not only that, my sense of jealousy was to the max!! I know this is rather open but I even felt jealous when seeing my fiance speak with his classmates during lectures and on their way to class. It wasn't just a mere twitch of jealousy - it was the kind when you felt like punching the wall and stumping your way back home and all of a sudden you realize that teardrops are coming out. Massively. Huhu. I also read at Ummusaif's blog that 'women who typically experience premenstrual syndrome may have more extreme mood swings when they're pregnant'. O-ooo...

And that, my sisters, signifies why we should also recite ma'thurat during ma'dzurah (menses) ..arasso? ^__^

I have a month's time to kill before the Final Exam that'd be insyaAllah in early January. Do pray that we'd all pass with flying colours. Because I really really really want to have my feet laid on the grounds of...

1. Nottingham!! Yes the place where I was born (kire macam balik kampungla ni keke :P). I'd be staying at Pakteh's and would get to babysit Aina and Kaisa (tak sabaq nak jumpa depaa!! hehe)

2. Scotland!! Juga berjalan bersama pakteh sefamily dan insyaAllah akan main ski jugak..weee!!! By the way the picture above is Dundee, kampung kedua tempat saya membesar..hehe..

Oklah, I better get back to reading. My current cycle is ENT (ear nose and throat) and guess what my lecturer discovered. Upon examination, he found nodules on my vocal cord that depicts that I 'talk too much and too loud' ...so I'd have to be a bit ayu after this huhu. And next, he said that my extenal auditory meatus (ear canal) isn't that curved as an adult's..it is more horizontal like a baby's. *__*.

Well it shows that I'm special, right? Ngehehe.

The above picture is a bowl of chicken soup. What made it special was because it was made and sent by my fiance when I was 4 days sick a week ago. He rarely cooks alone (dia tak suke masak and tak berapa tau masak tapi tolong roommate die masak je :P ) and he learnt the recipe just a day before!! Tapi bile tengok cara pemotongan nampakla gaye potongan org yg baru belajar masak sendiri ngehe :P tapi sedaappp!!! Lepas nie bolehla belajar masak benda laen pulak ^__^

Am trying hard to be like the women in the sentence.

Till then, salaam... :)

I've been tagged!!

2008-11-25T07:56:00.000-08:00

Salam...

I have been tagged!! Rarely do I get such opportunites (poyonye ngengenge). The tagger (Balqis) asks me to display my desktop wallpaper, and here it is...tadaaa!!!~~

I like this picture because of the color scheme, the wordings, the message. Each glimpse somehow soothes the heart. Its like...having a sip of strawberry green tea everytime looking at it!! Hehe :)

Don't think I'd be tagging other people..coz I simply don't know who to tag..

Later!! ^__^

Istanna Suwayya! Fi eh kaman..?

2008-11-08T13:30:00.000-08:00

Assalam'Laikum...

If my blog was a rack of books, I bet it'd have cobwebs dangling everywhere by now. For it has been past a month since I last wrote a post. Lazy me! You see, the winter-lazy-fever has once again creeped its way down my nerves. Shush..shussshhhhh!! Go away. I really don't need you..not when the final exam is coming up in two months time *__*

At current, I am way into a few books; Ayat-ayat Cinta, Kerana Cinta Bertasbih (as mentioned in my previous post) and Hidayah Cinta. These three books propose the same message; that His love outbounds the love for others; and that no love remains as eternal as His. Jagalah Cinta Allah, nescaya Allah akan menjaga cintamu. They also have lotsa Hadith and Qur'an Tafseers - good food for the heart. And yes, I do need them, at this very moment, no doubts I do. Sometimes you just feel so gloomy and down, and you feel so far from Him.

This month had been a month of me juggling my life with conflicts of my own - of questions unanswered, confusion, hesitations and such, and of thinking ahead into the future. You have a big jigsaw puzzle in front - you think you see the picture clear enough, but some spots remain unearthed. At times it feels as if you have some telepathy with your dearest ones, and you believe that they have those mutual feelings too. And sometimes, they just do...

Wahai orang yang lembut hatinya...
Sudah lama aku selalu mengecap pahit
Kala beroleh penderitaan
Aku tiada sesiapa pun melainkan Allah di hatiku
Tapi kau datang dengan cahaya...
Aku ingin menjadi yang halal bagimu
Yang kau kecup keningnya
Kau hapus air matanya...

Dari orang yang selalu merindukan cahayamu...
Sarah

"...It could be that you dislike something, when it is good for you; and it could be that you like something when it is bad for you. Allah knows, and you do not know." [2:216]

"...In Him I place my trust, and all those who trust should trust in Him alone.” [12:67]

Wallahua'lam...

Sum up of Raya 2008

2008-10-26T12:36:00.001-07:00

Saya sekarang sangat malas nak menulis. Serius tak tipu. Dek kerana itu, post kali ini saya tunjuk gambar sahajalah ya. Sum up of Raya 2008...

Beraya di Kedutaan Malaysia di Kiev. First time tuuu!! Yeayyeayyy..~

Puding karamel Datin buat..sedap menjilat jari!!

Kuih raya Auntie Ros buat

Bersama Datuk Nazri - Menteri di Jabatan Perdana Menteri

Jalan-jalan di Kiev...

Gloria Jeans Coffee

Melangkah dengan gayanya! Huahuahua :P

Oklah, sampai di sini dahulu. Mahu menghabiskan novel Ayat-ayat Cinta (walaupun dah tengok movienye, tapi dek kerana Kak Nad kata beliau menangis bila baca novelnye, maka saya pun kena baca jugak!! Testing nangis =P) dan novel Ketika Cinta Bertasbih. Dua-dua karya Habiburrahman El-Shirazy.

Later...wassalam ^___^

ps: Happy Birthday Dearest Hani!! (my sis who just turned 20 on 5th November)

pps: Saya naik 2kg tau gara-gara beraya kat Kiev!! Tapi alhamdulillah dah turun balik ;)

Buat Org Kampung...1st day Raye

2008-10-02T06:07:00.001-07:00

him, kimi-fana (hubby-wifey), me

My fiance and me

The SUK family

My classmates - Group 531

My roommates - 831

ps: yang lain nanti!! ade byk lg hehe :)

Memory Lane revisited.

2008-08-31T08:12:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum...

First and foremost, I would like to wish all muslimeen wal muslimaat out there a very happy and blessed Ramadhan. May this month be a good platform for us to better ourselves in search of Jannah. A very Happy 51st Merdeka too to all Malaysians, staying local and abroad...and last but never the least, a very big Happy Birthday to my fiance who will be turning 23 this 1st September =) (ceeewah dah bole panggil fiance :P hehehe) a year older, a year wiser, and a year nearer for us to graduate (*wink*wink*) and may you learn lotsa stuff, be it academically-based, house chore-related (erkk) ilmu akhirat and vice-versa this coming year..ganbatte!!

For the coming four semesters I have pondered upon a new way of studying. The goal isn't just to ace with 5's, but also to learn the Malaysian way..in other words, to read more International and Malaysian Medical books, apart from the Russian's (because some of them differ by an inch..but an inch in medicine is THAT crucial). As quoted by the local doctors.. "Awk nie nanti nak kerja kat sini kan? Jadi kenala belajar cara sini!". Huhuhu.

At long last, after 4 painstakingly kinda-long years, I had the opportunity to perform my solat tarawih at home..can you believe that?!! The feelings were a mix of joy-ebullient-anxious..no words can describe them best!! Till I nearly felt like bringing along my camera with me and taking pictures of all the saffs..bet if I do they'd think I'm a weirdo. Haha.

Past a few days back, I was tuning into Flyfm and overheard a poll on 'The Most Powerful Man-made Invention over the last century'. Lots of feedbacks were given, and a listener called and named the 'camera' as the so-called paraphernalia.

Coincidentally, dad just bought a 3-in-1 printer-scanner-photocopying machine, and after mum did some spring-cleaning, she discovered lots of photo albums, some having photos that dated since dad was nine!! Apparently a number of them got ruined, perhaps because of the humid air. So, dad said that the coming school holiday's homework was to scan the whole lot!! Hohoho.

Well oh well..after some scavenging and rummaging, look what I've found!! Jeng-jeng-jeng!! The good old days revealed... ^__^

Me when I was merely one @ Notts

learning to crawl

mari belajar solat~

beraya di perantauan

was I yawning..?or what?

Posing with my lunchbox in front of Park Place Primary School (see, told you I had the talent nurtured within :P)

My Home-made birthday cake that mama baked!! (the cream-spread was a wee bit messy..but thumbs up for mama who made the delicious cake all by herself =))

Notice that I'm wearing a badge written 'Happy Birthday'...it is a custom for us school kids to do so so that at school everyone would be greeting us with Happy Birthdays at the top of their voices..hahaha

These pictures make me want to visit my childhood place so much..Dundee, here I come!!(kalau ade duitlaa... *__*)

Will be flying off to Ukraine in 4 days time InsyaAllah..I so don't want to leave home =(

winkwink* Part 2

2008-08-19T05:39:00.000-07:00

The engagement ring

Salam...
Dedicated especially for makteh and pakteh living far away in Notts :)

Reedited:

Farisha anak Makndak and Tok

Maksu, Anisa, me, Fairuz and Zhafran

Hani and Zhafran (in his second outfit)

Maklang (the hantaran-maker) and me with the 13 hantarans for him

Tokwan cube senyum..hehe :)

Kak Arina (who's 36 weeks pregnant at that moment) and Fairuz

Pakwan pun nak duduk atas pelamin!!hehe

Hani, Kak Arina and Zhafran

Me and makndak (haven't met her for 4 years..wow~)

Toksu (her hubby was our side's 'tukang cakap') maktok the sireh-maker, and maksu

Kakyong and Ellisa..cousins from abah's side

My wee chaotic cousins..haha

Photoshooted by Muna (and she was to be engaged the following day!!)

My siblings whom I adore each and every second.. Hani, Amira, Anisa, Ariff

Rombongan Ipoh dah maii!!

exchanging gifts

during the discussion (I could sense the palpitations at this moment..hoho)

Alhamdulillah..everything went smooth sailing

his side and my side

We had to smile for ages!!

Thundercats!! Hehe~

ps: more pictures uploaded at http://dropshots.com/sarahss . some videos available too.

Do pray that we may get heed of ourselves during this 'darah manis' period ;)

Maybe its Maybelline..?

2008-07-29T04:08:00.000-07:00

Salaamun alaik...

Time and again, often do we encounter faces, whom, if not, will leave traces in our hearts. For these people, our presence may be that of the common peeps that linger around them 24/7; little do they how significant were the roles that they had implicitly played in our lives.

To these people - I owe each of you a million!!

(Specialists) Dr. Jamali (my favourite doctor!!) , Dr. Wan Norizah, (HO) Dr. Khairul and Dr. Syazwani (O&G)

(Specialists) Dr. Faizah, (HO) Dr. Rajan, Dr. David and Dr. Ida (Paeds)

(Specialists) Dr. Sangar, (HO) Dr. Faizah and Dr. Faizal (Surgery)

(Specialists) Dr. Ng, (HO) Dr. Sangeetha and Dr. Subhita (Medicine)

Thank you very much!! muches gracias :)

Pity; hence the fact that I cared less to take snapshots of them.

Such sincere gratitude, despite the fact that I felt so relieved once everything had finally made its full stop. Huuu~~

Selamat Pengantin Baru Sakeenah (now my ex-roomie) and Mashkur 02.08.08

Kak Sakina Adam (Aisha Adam's sister) and her husband Salihim

This neonate was in NICU. Premature (27/52 weeks) Birth weight 920 grammes, delivered through LSCS (low segment caesarian section) diagnosed with RDS (respiratory distress syndrome)

Hysterectomy (uterus resection) performed. Patient was diagnosed with multiple fibromyoma (stage identified only after biopsy)

A wee little indian baby =) fresh from her/his mum's womb

My practicum mates..Sarah Sathripriya (CSMU) and Woon Lee (IMU)..you guys rock!!

Woon Lee and me

Kak Mastura Hamzah (my Naqibah) and me on the day she got engaged =)

Akasyah (my Suk senior cum her fiance) and Kak Mas (image a bit blurlah..was using my mobile cam)

the hantarans~

If I could metaphorize my life as a desk, it would be in a bit of a shambles by now. Not that things are becoming messier, but the nervy feelings keep jolting in at high amplitude every minute!

Next comes in the fact that my remaining one month of holidays will be fulfilled with weddings nearly every weekend. Weee!! Of course, during the ceremony, all eyes would be focused on the bride and grooms attire. That also goes for the accessories...and, make-up.

If I had a list of dislikes, I guess one of the top fives would be applying make-up. For when it comes to such matters, I'd go urrrghhh. I, for a fact, am no make-up girl (regardless of the fact that at times, purchasing them makes me feel ebullient :p) hence, you can only see my cheeks glow pink during special occasions.

In all of a sudden mum wants me to learn the curves and shades of lipstick and eye shadows to become more 'anak-dara' like.

She also insists that I start to make myself fond of high-heels (another paraphernalia in my list of dislikes) "sebab 'dia' tinggi".

yikes-a-bee *__*

Good thing platforms were invented...I hate the clattering sounds that high heels give once they thrust on the floor.

If only I had a million, I'd be asking for Datuk Siti's favourite make-up artist. Brought all the way from Indonesia. Her touch of art is so neat and delicate..and splendid!! It wouldn't make you look like some barbie doll plastered with a 5 inch paste of makeup. Then again, what was her name..? Lupelaaa...

And, of course..in my dreams laaa!! Hehehe...

Anyone care to give me lessons on blushes and eyelashes? ^__^

testing

2008-07-28T17:50:00.001-07:00

testing

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practice makes purrrfect

2008-06-13T23:25:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum everyone.

Sorry for the wee hiatus. I had some difficulties accessing blogger recently, for some unknown reason.

Let me start with the updates from Dubai. Dubai surely is one of a hot country huhu. Imagine the 39 celcius spiking heat. Seeeriously, you could barely walk for more than 15 minutes outdoors, and next you're bound to be sniffing for some cold 16 celcius air-conditioned outlet. It was kinda funny coz at some point we were sooo desperate, we just had to snobble into a shop and scrunch up make-believe faces, pretending to be innocent consumers searching head to toes for none-the-less valuable goodies!! Haha. Maka berkuranglah diameter wallet kami. Ekekek~

Aloha Dubai...

told you it's hot. you can barely see anything

one of the reasons i love this place hehe

coconut juice - tasted so sweet, i felt hyperglycemic

Nothing much happened within the first week of arrival. It was more of a 'lets-eat-everything-you've-been-craving-for' feast. Till I had to make several rounds within the pasar malam...because, there was just so much to taste and gulp down.

By the second week, I had already started my elective postings. This year's practicals differed a bit than yesteryears. There were housemen (HOs') to begin with, so we had the chance to really see how the life of a houseman lingers about. You had to be in the wards by 7am, and most of the time all the tasks wouldn't be completed by 9pm. Ward roundings, all the bla-bla-bla procedures..but it wasn't really fun because we could only observe and assist them, and nothing could be done alone. (waaa sungguh x thrill!!huhu). But the housemen were really nice. They'd answer all the questions provoked, and let us rummage through their books. Sgt seronok!! In return I gave them some Ukraine kopeks sebagai kenang-kenangan. Thanks Dr. Faridah and Dr. Faizal!!

Last sunday, my family and I had a special visit to Ipoh. Hehe. It went really well!! Sangat terharu sebab bile time lunch tgk2 ade ikan pari asam pedas..rupa2nya maknye masak special utk saye!!! Huhuhu~~

K la takmo crite panjang2. The rest is for me to know, and for you to wonder. Got to be ready for tomorrow's practical..jumpe lagie!!!

Lotsalov

-sarahss-

X0x0

I'm going home!!!

2008-06-07T04:11:00.000-07:00

Another 3 hours for departure. Pray us a smooth journey. Got to go now. Doakan kami selamat sampai ke Dubai...dan selamat balik ghumah...bye!!!

ps: uni-chan smoge dpt tuka tiket balik awl!! :)

What would it be...?

2008-05-24T04:42:00.000-07:00

Alhamdulillah...my essay got submitted for the MSC Synapse Magazine! Yippee!!

What Would It Be…?

Life is short. Once upon a time you were born, and in a blink’s eye, you’re almost a quarter century old. You think that the fun is about to begin – truth is, you’re nearly approaching the deadliest days of your life.

When I was eight, I dreamt of becoming a lecturer. Daddy’s influence, I’d say, because he’d have occasional outstations that’d keep him tuck comfy in the aircrafts passenger seat, and we’d all be sending him off with envy. And of course, the hopes that daddy would bring back humps of souvenirs and goodies – well who didn’t like surprises?

Three years flew, and I turned eleven. My ambition? A stewardess. They get to work in the air (isn’t that cool?), travel abroad, like, every week, and their jobs are pretty much simple – well, it depends on how much stars they owe the airline. Haha. But I scratched that off – think I couldn’t handle being away from home that long a period.

The days of high school came, and I became love-struck with chemistry. Perhaps, why not, a biochemist? Jiggle with all the chemicals in the world. Yikes.

Apparently, high school ended, and I was all determined to become a pharmacist. Yup, a pharmacist. However, when scribbling the JPA form, dad – well, he didn’t frown, but the smile he gave wasn’t his usual smile. Said that he yearned so long to become a doctor, but hadn’t the chance, and had high hopes that his daughter would make up for his dream. Truth is, at that moment, I nearly thought I had no guts to become one.

* * *

I thought that medicine was a subject for typical geek nerds. Thought that it meant all work, no play, no fun. Thought that it meant maximum boredom. Thought that anatomy and histology would take forever to be memorized, and that biochemistry would make me go nuts. But here I am, 22 years old, being a 4^th year student, in CSMU. And, like, I’ve passed half way through my med school years.

It’d take me two more who-knows-what-will-happen years before I hit internship, and the thought of it already sends adrenaline gushes down my sympathetic trunk. Ouch. Imagine all the on-calls, the harsh rebukes, the reprimands, the urghhhh God knows what’ll happen. The days that’d be filled with books revised all night long before the next day begins, and you just can’t predict how many ‘emergency surprises’ would come rolling in per day. You’d care less on how you look, your appetite would shrink to its lowest, and one just couldn’t fuss more on what movies to catch up. Yup, a tiring, exhausting day they’d be indeed.

Come to think about it, that’s what life mingles about. You can never be too happy at all times, and so does it go for misery. What you get tomorrow, depends on how you struggle for it, today.

Four years back, being a freshie, I pinned dermatology as the field of desire if ever I thought of specializing into one. A month ago, I was thinking of neurology. And just, a week back, general practice hit my mind.

Having said that, God willing, given a decade more to live, I’d try give my best shot to become the coolest doctor ever – regardless of all the hassles one may have to face in the world. And, of course, a family of my own would seem nice too. J

-whispers^unplugged-

ps: welcome to the world, Akmal Harris!! Kak Ecah's newborn baby...and I had the chance to lay him on my lap 6 hours after the labour..the motherly feeling..indescribable!! :P

pps: am now in exam mode for 2 weeks..doakan sayer ^_^

Jelajah Benua: A Day at the farm

2008-05-11T13:53:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum...

Two days ago we eventually had our last program of the semester: Jelajah Benua (JB). It was held in Bakhchisarai, with the aim of helping the Tartar Muslims in need. Donations consisted of food, money, medication and clothing; and of course the most vital of all: our Al-Qur'an.

The one thing that made me love this year's JB was because, I actually got to do some farm stuff. Haha. Talking about being a country kid. Couldn't believe I actually had the chance to do them!!

Climb up - hee - ho~

Look at the scenery behind. Subhanallah..lawa kan??

With Mrs Roestam (ps: they do have three daughters, aged 12,16 and 19. The youngest goes to school, and the other two work. The 2nd and 3rd were there, but they refuse being captured on cam. Mrs Roestam sells bread,and knits clothes for a living.

Mr Roestam in action. He has retired, and has been suffering from back pain. Yet he insists to manage the crop. Says "I can't just let my wife do all the working" .

Their comfy little sweet home

Now comes the food.

First there was breakfast. We had homemade coffee and tea (the coffee seeeriously tasted like our kg's kopi hitam tu..), homemade bread, kefir and jam, some wafers, choc biscuits and sweets.

Next came in lunch. She cooked 'butter-plov(rice) porridge that had some meat and chicken in it, and baked us a huge super-duper yummylicious mouth-watering tempting oh-I-can-describe-you-no-more bread~

The gigantic bread

Yer..yer..saye makan makcik!!Hehe

At the kitchen where she cooks the food..it was somewhat like a basement.

The bread I told you about

Butter-rice plov porridge cooking in action

Next she took us to their farm!! They planted their own crops, and had their own cows from where they get milk, had their own chicken, sheep, goat and cows. The goats and sheep were afraid of us at first!! Kelakar jek~

Haha...gotcha!!! Bulu dier sangat lembut...cam teddy bear~

Chicks in my hands!! Sangat chomeyl~

And next - look what we got to do!! Hehe..perah susu lembu!!

It seems easy - wait till their in your hands. Yikes!!

Sipping milk fresh from the cows...breast? erk~(seeeriously sgt sedappp tak terhingga~~)

I do intend to go visit them again..and perhaps do some serious farming!! Hehe..just wait till the exams are done, and you may spot me in country-kid mode. Yippee!!

ps: If you notice at the side bar, I have linked in a new website bawang goreng. It's a very nice site, with lotsa tips regarding relationship to be exact. Good for newly-weds, newly-wed becomers and hubby wifeys. The bonus point is, at nearly every article there'd be hadith, Qur'an aayahs and related stories from Rasulullah S.A.W's sirah. Though I must say, I wouldn't recommend kids to browse the site - because some articles might render them clueless *wink*wink* (erm sesetgh post tu mungkin cm blue..tp saye rase kite semue dah besar, and mostly pembace blog nie pun medic students kan..jadik silerla open-minded yek!! Jgn pikir bukan2 pulak psl saye kang..hukhuk. Lagipun utk mase depan korg jugak :D )

Prodigy Potluck (oh, it's food again...)

2008-05-11T13:17:00.000-07:00

We were supposed to hold this a year back; however lots of activities trailed in, and all were just too busy. So we squashed in the event last Friday; it was Ukraine's Victory Day, hence holiday.

Lunch, your highness, is served...

Agar-agar buah sirap-susu

Mashed potatoes

Mini doughnuts

Ayam bakaq

Sushi

Banana cake topped with moist choc n strawberries

Choc-n-cinnamon bread pudding

Non-KFC's coleslaw

The sengal-yet-sporty board members..hehe

We also had fried rice; however the picture went missing.

Guess which one did I make? *wink*wink*

Haaaa...cepatla aper lagik...jemputla makan!!! *grinning_wide*

XOXO for my mum ;)

2008-05-11T12:46:00.000-07:00

And so, the BEST MUM of the universe award goes to...

PUAN ZAKIAH OTHMAN!!!

Hehehe..my very own mum :)

The ever most beautiful, sporty, caring, kind, lovable; all those good deeds you can ever think of, you have it all mama. You complete my world.

And this song goes for you; Everyday I love you :)

Mum when I was around 5. Sorry for the blurry image. Guess which one's me? Hehe

Mama's pic of raya 2006..comel macam anak die (erk terbalik kot? :P)

Would like to share with everyone this beautiful story; an excerpt from the 'My Story' section of Reader's Digest. A good read for future docs too. [credit to matpeet]

Two Mothers, One Message

'Each taught me the meaning of life in her own way ' written by Maria Zulfiqar, RD april 2007

Every time somebody asked me about my future ambition when I was growing up in Pakistan, I always replied, “I want to become a doctor.” The white coat and stethoscope attracted me so much – I would play with my toy doctor’s kit for hours and hours.

My sister Maryam and I would often pretend that she was terminally ill and the only option left was an operation. The best part of it was my declaration to our mother, in the most melodramatic tone I could muster, that Maryam had not survived. My mother always told me very gently that a doctor’s first priority should be to save her patient’s life, no matter what. “The rest lies in God’s hands,” she said.

When I was 18, my childhood dream took a step closer to reality when I was accepted into King Edward Medical University in Lahore. My mother’s words about a doctor’s duty rang in my ears on my first day at the college.

Clinical interaction with patients didn’t begin until the third year, and when it was my batch’s turn for the ward visit, I was almost hysterical with excitement. Beds were allotted to individual students. I walked over to my bed and encountered a very strange sight: a woman covered with a metal case on which a light cloth was placed. She was moaning with pain. I soon realised that she was a burns victim.

It was the first time I saw someone who was critically ill. I tried talking to her but she was barely conscious. Her mother, a grey-haired woman with a wrinkled face and a determined gaze, was standing by the bed. She told me a little about her daughter. Her name was Aisha*. She was 22 years old. Her husband was a shopkeeper and she had two children – a two-year-old daughter and an infant son.

When I asked about the cause of the burns, the mother broke down. Covering her face with her hands to hide her tears, she told me that Aisha’s husband had set her on fire. At that moment, Aisha, who was nearly comatose, raised her hand and grabbed her mother’s shirt. “I told you, he put the fire out,” she said weakly. “I was cooking – it was an accident.”

“Why are you defending him?” the mother replied. “He is the one who did this to you. He should be punished for what he has done. You just tell me the truth!”
Her cries drew the attention of other patients in the ward. I tried to comfort her by telling her what was being done to save her daughter. It made no difference. Sobbing, she slowly moved towards the corner and collapsed on the floor.

I looked at Aisha’s chart – it said she had suffered burns to 83 per cent of her body. Oh God! I thought. At 30 per cent, burns are regarded as life threatening. She was up against almost three times that! Still, I tried to console Aisha’s mother. “The senior doctors are trying their level best to save your daughter’s life. Please don’t lose hope. If you cry, what will Aisha think? She needs you more than ever now.”

With a heavy heart, I left the mother and daughter and returned to my classes. That night, I couldn’t sleep. How will I face the mother if Aisha dies? I kept thinking. I considered Aisha to be my responsibility even though I was just a third-year student. I should have told the mother the truth, I thought. I shouldn’t have given her false hope.
The next day, Aisha’s bed was empty. I asked the senior doctor what had happened. “She died last night,” he replied. “Couldn’t do much for her.”

His easy tone shocked me. “How did you tell her relatives?” I hesitantly asked.
He eyed me with curiosity. “I just told them she was dead. What do you think I could have said?”
I was taken aback by his “professional” attitude, which lacked the slightest touch of humanity. A mother who had lost her daughter to a violent and painful death had learned about it in such a cold-blooded manner. I left early that day and cried my heart out. When I was a child, telling my mother about the make-believe death of my sister was easy. Now I shuddered at the thought of what I would have done if I had been the one to tell Aisha’s mother.

A few days later, I ran into Aisha’s mother, who had come to the hospital to pick up some paperwork. She looked at me and smiled gently. Then, placing her hand on my head, she kissed my forehead and prayed for my long life. “You doctors did whatever you could,” she said. “The rest was His will.”

That was nearly three years ago, but her words are still fresh in my mind. I have just finished my final year of medical school and I haven’t seen another case as horrific as Aisha’s. But I am not afraid anymore. Aisha’s mother equipped me with something I already knew but didn’t understand. My own mother had told me the same thing again and again, but it was lying dormant within me.

I will always be thankful to Aisha’s mother for telling me the meaning of life: that we should do everything we can; the rest lies in God’s hands.

Dinner, is served.

2008-04-29T07:36:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum...

Alas! The writer's block phenomenon once again has casted it's spell on me. Needless to say, my mind now is all in jumbles with equations, drug recipes, nerve pathways, all meddled up in a huge pile. Huhu~

The past couple o' weeks flew by with lotsa activities squashed in through the weekends. Princess Day Out to begin with, next came in Sepak Takraw Tournament and Family Day, and coming ahead in queue will be the Sisterhood Gathering and 'Jelajah Benua' event (me elected as the secretary). And, like just a couple o' weeks after that, would be the dreaded exam week. Ouch.

So you can simply presume how the writer's block hit itself in.

Enough said. A stack of Hygiene Q&A's are neatly laid in front of me, and that guilty feeling keeps biting in every second I lay my hands off them. Another, big, ouch!

note: by scrolling down the below-displayed photo's, you'd understand how the title click's in with this post. Beware for any gastric juice and hydrochloric acid hypersecretion :P Owh dear tummy, please don't rumble too much..

A snap of an i'm-not-sure-what-is-the-name flower I took weeks ago at the park. Among all pictures taken, I love this one the most.

Kak Masyi, Tira and me at the outdoor stadium. What are we staring at you ask..?

Why, we spotted a paintball tournament in all of a sudden! Haha. A first watch for me~

Grilled meat, chicken and french fries, barbequed. Deliciously mouth-watering. Nie yang nak mintak lagi nie. Hehe

Dishes below were the menu of our usrah's picnic potluck. Don't blame me if suddenly your sublingual and submandibular glands hypersalivate.

Kak Mas Sham's veggie salad

Kak Mas Hamzah's fried mee

Atique's curry puff

My honeydew, coconut-milk jelly pudding

Kak Aimul's bubur kacang

Kak Afid's caramel pudding (specifically requested from me..haha :P)

Kak Ifa's karipap pusing

The crew. Ow yeah we usrah-mates rock!! Hehe~

Spotted this tarzan-jump at the park, and dared myself to have a shot. Luckily no vomit masses spilled out afterwards! Haha. Though i did feel nauseous..

Family Day..the 'bola-beracun' crew. We came in as 1st runner-up (I think).

I seeeriously want this book!! Will be snatching it the very first moment I enter any bookstores once back home..

ps: Happy Birthday to mama..and happy anniversary to abah and mama!! The whole lot are spending a night at the Palace Of The Golden Horses, leaving me alone alongside humps of books. *_*

Praise be upon Him

2008-04-15T10:08:00.000-07:00

Alhamdulillah..the Princess Day Out event was a success!! Will be uploading the pics a.s.a.p, insyaAllah. For the timebeing..menghadap buku sajer lagik seperti biase..huhu.

Kudos to the guys for preparing those yummylicious cheese cake, bread pudding, and caramel pudding..seeeriously menjilat jari.

Gambar..cepatlah sampaii..huhu.

Me at the park, photo-snapping with tira

Mixed emotions...

2008-04-09T05:32:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum...

The first event of me being the Ketua Puteri is just around the corner. Norms have it that I should be feeling all nervous and anxious by now. However, the feelings haven't yet creeped in.

Lebih kurang pukul 8 pagi tadi, saya menerima sms daripada mak. Panjang smsnya, memakan 4 sms. Panjang sms mak, membawa seribu satu mesej, yang meninggalkan kesan dalam di hati..

"...frankly speaking, bukan senang mama n abah nak melepaskan akak. Kami dah biasa bagi n ikut kemahuan anak-anak. Akak n adik-adik pun tak pernah susah n akak pun tahu bagaimana abah sayangkan akak.."

Waaaa!! Hati anak mana yang tak terharu dan menangis andai mendapat mesej sebegitu..huhu.

Mama, Abah, selagi jantung ini masih berdegup, akak akan ikut cakap mama abah.

Mama, abah, (walaupun akak tahu mama abah tak bace blog nie) janganla risau..insyaAllah akak akan pandai jage diri nanti. Kalaupun dah jadi milik orang, abah n mama akan sentiasa dekat di hati..takkan ke mana punya akak :)

Baru saya tahu, betapa sukarnya bagi ibu bapa saya melepaskan permata sulung mereka kepada orang lain. T_T

Hiba hati saya tatkala pagi, rupanya berulang tatkala tengahari. Sesuatu terjadi, juga meninggalkan kesan yang dalam di lubuk hati. Kejadian yang mana tak siapa pun bersalah, atau patut disalahkan..tapi hiba tetap datang, dek mainan perasaan.

Kata cikgu psychology, "every person has his own dark side, which inevitably will sometimes backstab yourself from within".

If I had a most prevalent dark side, it would be jealousy.

Saya memang kuat cemburu. Sangaattt kuat. Cuba ditepis perasaan itu, tapi memang sukar. Lalu dipendam, menjadi nanah yang memakan diri sendiri...
Sye tidak pernah pun terniat untuk marah, apatah lagi salah anggap, tapi perasaan itu tetap datang. Sye juge insan biasa yang punya perasaan sendiri. Nak buat macamane..? ;(

Dan sememangnya seandainya perasaan itu tidak dapat dikawal, sayalah yang bersalah. Bersalah kerana membiarkan diri bergejolak dengan emosi seribu satu macam. Tatkala itu, tahulah saya, segalanya ujian dari Allah untuk menguji kekuatan iman hambaNya. Lalu tangan ini pun cepat-cepat menadah...

Ya Rabbi, kurniakanlah hambaMu ini kesabaran yang tinggi...

Princess Day Out

2008-04-09T05:08:00.000-07:00

My first ever event as Ketua Puteri...Poster Hari Wanita 2008

Perasaan cuak dan takut, Allah saje yang tahu. Kawan-kawan, doakan majlis ini berjalan lancar, fun dan bilhikmah ye!! :)

Beyond Words...

2008-04-03T10:27:00.001-07:00

Ameen ya Rabbal 'alameen..

Bring it on!! ^0^

2008-03-29T07:33:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum...

Alhamdulillah, after months of anticipation, the scholar pocket money was banked in yesterday..and i have finally bought my ticket back home!!yeay!!

Depart: 7th June

Return: 4th September

Route: Simferopol-Kiev-DUBAI-KL via Aerosvit and Malaysia Airlines

weeeeeee~~~just could wait no more.

...which makes us, like, two months closer to the dreaded date.

(pic of 2006..bace smpai x nmpk muke..kekeke)

EXAMS. Hohoho. Just a few tips that might come in handy (for the author to be exact) :

1. FAHAM jgn HAFAL.
2. the best is to REPEAT five TIMES.
3. get the BASICS strong before going WAY DEEP.
4. imagine you are already a DOC treating/prescribing your patient some DRUGS
5. ooo yess..sarah jgn silap DOSE
6. read lotsa books..esp Kumar n Clark..don't just depend merely on LECTURE NOTES
7. concentrate n FOCUS mase study (tempat n mase mesti sesuai)
8. perbaiki niat + doa belajar + jage IBADAH sentiase
9. begin NOW
10. ingat nanti balik abah mama tanye RESULT (erkkk)

Think win-win and begin with the end in mind. Study SMART, not HARD.

..kalo nak jadik hantu stadi pun bole jugak. hehehe

Kawan-kawan semue...ganbatte lahhh!!

ps: uni-chan..bring it onn!! seryes tau..sye tgu niee!! :P

Mencintaimu Ya Rasulullah..

2008-03-20T09:49:00.000-07:00

credits to some Egypt students

Khas buatmu Kekasih Allah...

Menyintaimu Ya Rasulullah
Takkan cukup hanya amalkan Sunnahmu
Basah lidah selawat keatasmu
Teladani kisah hidupmu
Dalami susur sirahmu
Pakai baju akhlakmu
Pelajari hadith riwayatmu

Menyayangimu Ya Rasulullah
Hanya hati suci saja benar-benar mampu
Bersih, tiada hitam cacat-cela
Noda setitik dua
Kami?
Masih terkebil-kebil cari identiti
Hala tuju hidup dunia ukhrawi

Merinduimu Ya Rasulullah
Kau pemberi syafaat umat tercinta
umat kau sayang
umat terakhir
Kamilah itu Ya Nabi Allah
Biar zaman pisahkan kita
Biar lughahnya lain
Biar adat tak sama
Kami tetap umatmu

Moga kami punya rasa manisnya cinta
Buatmu Ya Rasulullah...

20/3/08 Simferopol

Pemergianmu - Inteam

Kau masih tersenyum mengubat lara
Selindung derita yang kau rasa
Senyuman yang mententeramkan
Setiap insan yang kebimbangan
Hakikatnya, tak tertanggung lagi derita
Di pangkuan isterimu Humaira
Menunggu saat ketikanya
Diangkat rohmu bertemu Yang Esa
Tangan dicelup di bejana air
Kau sapu di muka mengurangkan pedih
Beralun zikir menutur kasih
Pada umat dan akhirat
Dan tibalah waktu ajal bertamu
Penuh ketenangan jiwamu berlalu
Linangan air mata syahdu
Iringi pemergianmu
Oh sukarnya untuk umat menerima
Bahkan payah untuk Umar mempercaya
Tetapi iman merelakan jua
Bahawa manusia kan mati akhirnya
Tak terlafaz kata mengungkap hiba
Gerhanalah seluruh semesta
Walaupun kau telah tiada
Bersemarak cintamu selamanya
Ya Rasulullah
Kau tinggalkan kami warisan yang abadi
Dan bersaksilah sesungguhnya
Kami merinduimu...

Salam Maulidurrasul to all Muslims...
May we obtain his Syafaat
InsyaAllah

Buat CSMUians : Sambutan Maulid Nabi

Jom meh jom!!

TenTatif ProgRam

Aturcara Majlis Utama Sambutan Maulidur Rasul 1428H

Masa Program

1810 Solat maghrib berjemaah

1840 Tayangan Sempena Maulid-Nabi 1429

1930 Solat Isya’ berjemaah

1950 Pembukaan Majlis

Bacaan ayat-ayat suci Al-Quran (Saudara Ismail Hamzah)

Ucapan Pengarah program (Saudara Azmi Ghazali)

Bacaan Selawat beramai-ramai

2000 Diskusi Minda - Sirahmu Kebanggaanku -

2100 Persembahan Nasyid (HIZBULLAH), Berzanji

2110 Santapan Jasmani

Moga Jannah milik kita =)

Antara GE dan adat...

2008-03-17T08:20:00.000-07:00

Salam...

Today, I have just passed my endocrinology exam. Due to some diet miscalculations, the examiner gave me a 4@5, and asked me to do a report regarding insulin pump to obtain 5!! Alhamdulillah.. =)

The General Election's results are still being the big chit-chat of nearly all local offices and mamak stalls. PRU12: History Encrypted. For it shows how we Malaysians do have the power to speak out our thoughts. And yes, the local mass media are just sooooo discriminative. Thumbs up to all bloggers who dare scribble for justice!!

Saya juga melihat ia sebagai perjuangan sebuah keluarga untuk menegakkan hak dan keadilan yang lama sudah diekspoitasi oleh pihak-pihak tidak bertanggungjawab. Yes, Datuk Seri Anwar Ibrahim, Dr Wan Azizah, and Nurul Izzah. They deserve this win..and I pray that everything'd be smooth sailing for them. Allah Ta'ala nampak dan tahu apa yang orang lain tak nampak dan tak tahu. Alhamdulillah =)

DSAI and his daughter, Nurul Izzah

Dr. Shattri Mansor and his daughter, Sarah Shazwani (ade same tak??hehe)

We also had our own elections (that of the Malay Student's Society of Ukraine) and I had been officially elected as the Head Girl 'Ketua Puteri' of the organization. An indeed, very big and challenging post. Doakan saya dapat menjalankan amanah sebaik mungkin ye...

Pepatah melayu mengatakan: Biar mati anak; jangan mati adat. Adat warisan turun-temurun, namun kadangkala tidak diambil berat atau langsung tak diambil kisah oleh generasi muda masa kini. Terkena kat batang hidung sendiri. Hehe. Tahukah anda apakah itu adat merisik..?

Host:

Sungai Buluh panjang berbatu
Ada Patin, kelisa dan haruan;
Ramai sungguh datang bertamu,
Apa niat, apakah tujuan?

Guest: Kembang di taman berbau harum,
Bau semerbak seluruh desa;
Ditaman tuan bunga sekuntum,
Kami bertanya sudahkah berpunya?

Adat Merisik is a pre-engagement ceremony where the groom's delegation visit the bride's home to ask for the bride's hand in marriage. A 'merisik' ring/'cincin merisik' (normally being the 'cincin belah rotan') would be handed by the parents of the groom to the parents of the bride. Andainya cincin diterima dan disimpan, bermakna pihak perempuan bersetuju menerima pinangan tersebut. Ketika ini jugalah keluarga di kedua-dua belah pihak berkesempatan untuk berkenalan secara lebih dekat, dan beramah mesra. Lazimnya tarikh pertunangan akan ditetapkan pada saat ini. Si dara dan teruna juga tidak semestinya perlu ada ketika itu seandainya mereka sedang belajar atau bekerja di perantauan.

Haaaa...dah tau dah ape tu adat merisik? Saye pun baru paham sebenarnye..hehehe.

...countdown 3 months to go for the flight back HOMMEEE!!!!! yippee!!!

InsyaAllah =)

winkwink* =)

2008-02-26T08:20:00.000-08:00

In the name of ALLAH, the Most Gracious, Most Merciful..

They say that a picture's worth a thousand words. I say that it emblems eternal happiness.

Entah macamana, tatkala sedang mem'browse' beberapa laman menarik, tangan secara tak sengaja terklik link ini.

Warning: the pictures that you are about to view have no correlation whatsoever with the blogger, nor any other of her 2nd parties.

Saje-saje tengok. Out of own curiosity. Serious tau.

[please view at your own risk.]

Satu shot yang sangat unique and best. Nak jugak!!hehehe~

Haa macamnila cara ciuman dahi yang saye nak. Sang Putera meletakkan tangan di kepala sambil menarik dengan penuh kasih sayang. Takmo tarik bahu or tak pegang pape. Cium MESTI/WAJIB kena dahi. Tak kisahla tudung kemik ke tak. Takmo macam sesetangah orang yang cium langsung tak kena dahi. Kalau saye..saye suruh repeat balik tau!! :P :P

Another one of the 100 reasons to get myself a DSLR. Or, better yet, ask a friend who's good enough to jiggle with it. Ade sesape nak volunteer kan diri kee?

Serious ni tau. Kekeke..~

Saye dan atique yang sengal. Hikhikhik~

ps: saye memang sangat suke bergambar =)

'Post-stress' post.

2008-02-23T16:08:00.000-08:00

Salam...

The clock shows 2:09am. At norm, my eyes would be all drooling by now, but circumstances refrain them from being so.

Past two days ago, I got scolded by my neurology lecturer. "Very bad..you know nothing about this method!". Dahla she is the HOD (you can say that her position is that as of Dr. House's..being the Head Consultant n all). Turned out that I mis-wrote the notes (was in a rush, and couldn't care less to double check). Everything were in jumbles. 'course, I blame myself for the mere carelessness.

Back at home, I felt so upset. Upset due to the fact that I had done something so silly, and 'free-free kena marah dgn cekgu'. My mood doomed - zero.

I remembered some of our lecturers' popular sarcasms, which'd be uttered if a student fails to satisfy their demands...

"Ooo..so you're gonna deal with your patients with books in your hands??".

"You'd need bundles of books stuffed in your clinic then. What a shame".

"Your job is NOT to KILL a patient. But if THIS is how you work, you might as well WILL".

(Gulp...)

I am NOT gonna let another lecturer blow me. Ever. Again.

...and up to this point, the tasks just keep coming in bundles. Poster Hygiene + Olympiad Therapy + Neuro presentation + class notes ..... uhuk uhuk.

Tapi bak kate kwn saye, Allah takkan kasi sesuatu ujian kat hambaNya melainkan hambaNya boleh menghadapinya. Marah2 cekgu pun, untuk mase depan saye jugak. Kan kan?
Maka saye mestilah tabah menghadapinye... :)

Kalau kat Malaysia skrg demam pilihan raya, kat sini pula demam belajar. Sampai betul-betul demam pulak tu. Berjangkit-jangkit. Takpelah, kifarah dosa-dosa kecil :)

Tinggal lagi 2 tahun (kalau umur panjang) sebelum saye bergelar doctor. Ouch! Some changes needed pleassse...

* less sleep
* less food
* less internet
* less outing
* less daydreaming (ngehehe)

...semuenye less. Ape nak jadik nie. Marks kena 'more' la kan.

Pesanan buat diri sendiri...

stadik

stadik

stadik

...dan stadik lagi.

Pesanan buat awk jugee... ^_^

Pendek kate, pesanan buat semue orglah..arasso?

Hehehe.

That's more like it.

Ps: Ya Rabbi, jangan Kau tarik nikmat Iman dan Islam yang telah Kau kurniakan buat kami. Dan bukakanlah pintu hidayah buat sahabat-sahabat terdekat kami..mudah-mudahan mereka beroleh petunjukMu...

[hati kecil tersenyum gembire... :)]

Sajak Ummu Saif [saifulislam.com]

2008-02-11T05:45:00.001-08:00

Sajak ini hampir membuatkan saya menitiskan airmata...

[click here to view original webpage]

Suamiku

Maaf di atas keluh dan resah

Aku tewas di medan jiwa ku

Kerna aku baru belajar

Belajar menjadi seorang mujahidah

Namun gagalku sementara cuma

Itulah iman dengan seribu gelombangnya

Kugagahi segala dengan doa dan cita

Kata-kataku mungkin hambar

Ia sekadar cerita hidupku

Isteri sepi menagih simpati

Agar dunia tahu dan restu

Pesan dari teman yang dikenali

”Wanita itu rusuknya bengkok

Luruskan..berhati-hati

Bertegas..jangan keras

Berlembut..jangan sampai reput”

Itulah hakikat seorang isteri

Suamiku

Suka duka, tangis ria

Resepi hidup kita selamanya

Suamiku

Kupohon sabar darimu

Agar aku redup di bawah payungmu

Agar aku terang di bawah sinarmu

Agar aku mekar di dalam cintamu

Pergilah suamiku

Medan itu lebar dan luas

Engkau mujahid untuk semua

Kan kuiringkan doa dan cinta

Agar syurga Allah diberi balas

Tenang dirimu dalam doaku

Tenang diriku dalam cintamu..

Ummu Saif

9 Februari 2008

Mampukah saya menjadi sekuat itu...?

Hantaran Calculator

2008-02-06T11:30:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum..

After some random blog reading, I somehow got myself stumbled upon this bride-to-be's blog. Pretty much awed her sense of beauty-consciousness, and I did spot some diet supplements that I reckon would be worth trying (she lost 11kg's in 6-7 months - wahhh!!). Most of them were Herbalife products, and it so seems that my debate teacher, Pn. Husna is one of the dealers.
Nampaknye saye pasti akan ke rumah cikgu la balik summer nanti. Hehe.

Anyways. What made me go all oohs-n-aahs was actually this link:
Hantaran Calculator

Thought of giving it a try (sajer-sajer menggedik..hehe).

And here were the results...

Thank You for using this calculator.

Based on the matrimonial information you have supplied and considering prevailing economic conditions, your Hantaran would be $11,000

.....................................

(dunno how to react)

I had a look up at the website , just to see how the author justifies his modus operandi. Regardless everything, I like the way he puts his full stop:

"Note: Islam frowns upon wastage and preaches moderation, even when holding weddings. So take the calculator with a pinch of salt :) " - Ridzwan.com
That's more like it. Kan kan kan? ;)

Eurotrip 2008

2008-02-02T00:58:00.000-08:00

In the name of Allah, the most Gracious, Most Merciful...

The date was 16-28 January 2008.

The route was Simferopol-Kyiv-Rome-Venice-Barcelona-Basel-Zurich-Meilen-Lucern.

For more spectacular pictures, do peek in at my flickr http://flickr.com/photos/sarahshattri

Gambar kat blog saye upload sket saje. Sudah letihlaa mengupload gambarrr di flickr hukhuk~

KLM Royal Dutch Airlines

Schiphol Amsterdam Airport

Night - Venice

Saw this Swatch in Venice

D faces of d crew

DHL by sea? erk~

Touristic Bus

Gondola-ing

Venice

Grand Canal, Venice - night

Clone of Hobnob's..kot.

Lake Meilen - Dawn

Safira's (Kak Nana's 1st daughter) touch of art

Lunchpack

Kak Nana's glass house at the banks of Meilen Lake

Intercity train, Swiss

Lucern, Swiss

Barcelona FC Store

Swiss Alps

Paella

ZARA mode

Barcelona at night

Centric Point International Youth Hostel

Barcelona FC Stadium

Rome at night

With the Disney PIXAR guy

Roman Rings

Colosseum, Rome

The Swatch that I bought at Swiss..hehe (mcm yg saye nmpk kt Venice :P)

Pasta + Serunding..nyum nyum

A keychain per destination

KLM breakfast on the way back

One word to describe them all: Subhanallah..

And so, the best honeymoon spot goes to..

MALAYSIA!!!

sebab die ade banyak makanan murah2, halal dan senang dicariiiii.....
hikhikhik :P

Fear.

2008-01-05T14:05:00.000-08:00

Diaries. They're full of secrets. One day, when it happens, I'll reveal them all.
InsyaAllah.

*************************************************************************************

I wish I didn't have to. Nor did I wish that it'd happen. But, it did.
I just can't help feeling so scared. Sorry.
Guess am not that strong enough.

Today, I cried again.

;(

Zipped Mode

2007-12-19T12:49:00.001-08:00

Salam...

Exam fever strike! Another 3 weeks till the dreaded day. Hence, let the pictures do the talking.
Revealed; a month's journey...

Down Syndrome baby

3rd stage mental retarded patient

Deepavali

Umbilical Hernia

Testis adenoma

Torpedo strike..?

My home-made foil-wrapped lepat pisang :)

Birthday feasts galore - of my usrah and the SUK juniors. And you tell me I can't get any plumper..?

Finally, after a 4-years break - taekwondo back in action.

Now you see, the Simferopol folks do have a knack at decorating.

The mysterious white sport shoes.

My beloved class of 431

Currently obsessed with rossa's hit: ayat-ayat cinta OST (song uploaded at sidebar). Can't wait for the movie release! You may have a peek at the trailer : http://ayatayatcintathemovie.com

Rossa - Ayat-Ayat Cinta

desir pasir di padang tandus
segersang pemikiran hati
terkisah ku di antara
cinta yang rumit...

bila keyakinanku datang
kasih bukan sekadar cinta
pengorbanan cinta yang agung
ku pertaruhkan...

maafkan bila ku tak sempurna
cinta ini tak mungkin ku cegah
ayat-ayat cinta bercerita
cintaku padamu
bila bahagia mulai menyentuh
seakan ku bisa hidup lebih lama
namun harus ku tinggalkan cinta
ketika ku bersujud...

Synopsis: Ayat Ayat Cinta is a beautifully portrayed Islamic love story -- a tale of a virtuous Muslim protagonist who overcomes all obstacles of life maintaining pure ideals.

Fahri bin Abdillah is a poor, intelligent student who wins a scholarship to complete his graduate degree at Egypt's esteemed Al Azhar University. Very disciplined and dedicated by nature, Fahri embraces his life in Cairo, completing his studies and translation of religious books with full enthusiasm, exactly according to pre-determined targets.

Only one goal is left unattempted: the pursuit of marriage.

For Fahri is innocent and pure, and doesn't believe in the concept of relationships prior to marriage. He is inarticulate and shy around women. All his life, only two women have been close to him -- his mother and grandmother.

Life changes drastically in Egypt for he suddenly finds himself surrounded by four beautiful, distinctly different women.

Maria Girgis, a shy, open-minded Coptic-Christian neighbor who is attracted to the teachings of the Holy Al Quran, finds herself falling in love with Fahri (a fact she only reveals to her diary).

Nurul, a student at Al Azhar like Fahri, is the Muslim daughter of a renowned Indonesian cleric. Fahri feels unworthy of her and thus ignores his feelings for her, leaving her confused and guessing.

Noura, an abused Egyptian neighbor, develops strong romantic feelings for Fahri, who in turn simply sympathizes with her situation. His romantic rejection destroys her and eventually leads to a false accusation of rape.

Aisha, a German Turkish student in Cairo haunts Fahri with her beautiful eyes. Following an incident on the metro where Fahri defends her against narrow minded bigoted Muslims, both immediately develop feelings for each other.

As the story unravels, the protagonist makes the audience face the daunting decisions he himself faces, and forces us to marvel at his undying loyalty to the true ideals of Islam as he ultimately makes the choice of a lifetime.

ps: Salam Qurban Bayram; Eid-ul-Adha buat semua!! Raya kali ini tak terasa sangat..mungkin sebab bahang musim peperiksaan yang makin hampir..huhu. Jealous dengan family yang tengah beraya di kampung :(

pps: Haritu ayah saye kena demam denggi. Biiznillah, sekarang die dah pulih..alhamdulillah.

ppps: Doakan kami lulus semua subjek dengan cemerlang yee!! ;)

InsyaAllah, panjang umur, we meet again in 2008 ^_^

Lotsa love,

sarahss.

Doctor, the clock ain't stop clicking...

2007-11-09T12:55:00.000-08:00

In The Name of Allah, The Most Gracious, Most Merciful.

Assalamualaikum..

It took me, like, nearly half a day to summarize the whole thought lingering in mind - the do's and don't's, plus the shoulds and shouldn'ts. Of what the input should be, and how the output might seem.

I'm a 4th year student, and at my place, many regard it as the so-called 'honeymoon' year. Not that we could wiggle our toes 24/7, but perhaps because - well, compared to 3rd year, the schedule is like 5 times less hectic. And some students might as well get over the bridge. Literally saying, they'd just take it for granted.

'course, I'm one of those who, alike the others, would love to 'cherish' the beautiful moment. Married couples would be endlessly persuading the juniors, "kalau nak kahwin, kahwinla time 4th year. Meeemangg sangat honeymoonnn".. which is irrefutably true. One married couple is currently in my group - and yeah, nothing can be happier than seeing them being happy =)

Then again, you've still got the remaining years. Sebelum housemanship pun boleh lagi. Kan kan kan?

But that isn't the main issue.

Time is precious. Masa itu emas. Juga umpama pisau..andai kita tak dahului masa, ia akan memotong kita.

Some cycles in 4th year are so light, you can even sulk your eyes by watching movies non-stop. You could just simply do that.

But, it just doesn't feel right.

When I was 11, I nearly got whipped by dad for not being able to answer some mathematics problem. Cried terribly at that moment. It was 11pm at night, and an exam awaited me the following day. I could barely watch tv - let alone my all night fave series. Dad taught me to respect time. He taught me to stay up, to set my priorities right.

If dad saw the current me watching movies per se a quarter of the day, I bet he'd be upset. But, thing is, he isn't with me. And he couldn't see.

But Allah could. He sees me every time, everywhere, and He knows my exact doings. Won't He be sad if I did the supposed-not? Allah did not give us 24 hours for nothing. Which is precisely why, when drifted, I'd remind myself - you should be revising, kiddo.

Alhamdulillah, I'm already in my clinical years. At some times, in the past, I would have second thoughts of quitting med school and teach English to school kids. Mesti comel kan. Kih kih kih =P.

But, I don't think that could, would, or should happen at the present. It's just way late.

Sometimes I would have awful thoughts and pictures of how my life would presumably be in the future. Shadows of doubts that you'd just love to cast (speaking 'debate-term'-ly).

Back in high school, I always wished that my life would be of like mum's. Get her 'single' marital status altered into 'married' by the age of 22. But, I guess it might not fit me well. Mum and dad won't let me get hitched before med school ends. Huhuhu. Takpela, saya redha. They know me well, and know what's best. Mesti ada hikmah kan.

Then again, I'd be picturing myself getting the title before HOship starts. Lepas tu ke hulu ke hilir menjawab on-call dengan perut yang boroi, berbadan dua. Berpakainan 'maternal clothing' (did I ever tell you that at outfit stores, I always end up getting hooked at some maternal dress? Kadang2 bila di kaunter bayaran baru tersedar..huhu). Mesti comel kan. Hehehe ;P

If all goes smooth sailing, I'd get the 'Dr' initial ahead of my name in 2 and a half years. Yup. Which also signals the beginning of HOship. And the though of it really terrifies me. It's at this moment when you'd be pressurized to the fullest. Sometimes, I wonder if I could even be a doctor. As in, like, leave home and kids for more than half a day, abandon all the holidays you've been craving for.

My aunt, a Masters graduate, rejected countless of accountant job offers, most of which required late night returns. Said that none of them suited her timetable, and that nothing is more important than being at the side of her kids, watching them grow, whats more at the critical stage of a kid's age when identity-seeking is the major agenda. If you learn by heart, and not define knowledge by money, you'd see why I made the decision, she says. On the other hand, my neighbour's mum, an Associate Professor, left the highly-profited job to take care of her 10 children.

Which makes me think - am I gonna be able to be that, a good mum and wife, as my mum?

When I filled in the JPA form years back, i scribbled pharmacy as the course of choice. Dad saw the former, and - well, he didn't frown, but the smile he gave wasn't his usual smile. Said that he'd wished to be a doctor ever since, but didn't excel biology well enough, and would love nothing more than to see her first daughter accomplish that dream. Dad also proposed the option of lecturing medical students - something substitutable if ever i felt like laying off my hands from patients for a period of time.

Well abah, I'm on my way half through.

If ever anything happens, I'd put my family first ahead =)

ps: This article makes a good tip-off. Suggest you guys read it.
[Saifulislam: Kenapa Mahu Jadi Doctor?]

pps: Ayah saya tak garang, tapi tegas, lebih-lebih lagi dalam hal kerjaya dan keluarga. Dan dia seorang yang penyayang dan sangatttttlaa humorous...jadi janganlaa takut yee..hehehe :P

pps: Kawan-kawan jangan lupe, apa-apapun kita buat, niat utama ialah lillahi Ta'ala. Dia yang Maha Berkehendak, Maha Menentukan, dan ape terjadi sekalipun, pasti ada hikmahnya...arasso? =)

Burnin' d kitchen's oil..

2007-10-29T12:43:00.000-07:00

Salaamun alaik..

It's 29th October, and little do we realize that raya has already made its half move. Weekends would be hectic with open rooms piled in a row, and round li'l tummies just get - well, bloated.
If, you know what I mean.

For our open room, I was so-called elected as head chef for the chicken rendang. Whacked up some great time with chillies, chicken and all, and the room and kitchen just can't get any messier. Been sittin' in front of the stove from 10pm till 630am. After all, it's just a once in a year event.

The dishes? Nasi impit, dried chicken rendang, mee jawa, kuah kacang, air sirap limau, cookies, sweets and some wee bit of 'kuih cornflakes'. Tapi ade yang terkurang..maaf yee yang tak dapat :P

Menu Rendang Ayam Kering (doing it my maktok's way) :

Kisarkan bawang merah, bawang putih, halia, lengkuas, dan serai. Masukkan ke dalam periuk/kuali. Tumis. Masukkan cili boh/cili kering yang telah dikisar. Tunggu sehingga pecah minyak. Untuk mendapatkan warna yang lebih 'umph', tunggu lama sedikit.

Masukkan ayam yang telah dipotong kecil-kecil. Kacau. Kemudian, tuang santan pekat. Masukkan asam keping, daun limau purut, garam dan gula secukup rasa. Kalau mahu pedas, boleh masukkan sos cili; jika tidak, bubuh sos tomato (tapi tak perlu banyak).

Sejam yang terakhir, boleh masukkan kerisik dan serai/daun kunyit untuk menaikkan bau.

Selamat mencuba!

ps: pastikan api tidak terlalu kuat, dan perlu kacau selalu supaya tidak hangit. Untuk hasil yang memuaskan, tunggula 5 jam ye =)

Tadaaa!! Rendang ayam, anyone?? ^_^

: : whispers unplugged : :

And then came me!

Double the joy!

Blissfully Married.

Cry me a river T_T

swim like a butterfly!

Facts Galore~

So much oh so much....

Haru biruuu hehehe

The Carpathian Mountains

2009 End of Year Summary.

Busy as a beaver!

The Incredible Hunt

Narrated Abu Salama bin ‘Abdur-Rahman:

Retiring to a Mosque for the Remembrance of Allah. Book 3. Volume 33. Hadith 252

"You are most likely to die on..."

Food? Think Twice.

Drama Nur Kasih

Sebelum Akad Terpatri...

Semakin lama, semakin sayang, semakin rindu.

Cikgu?

Mama

Syndrome NABAKA

As Free As Could Be

Sabar Sarah...

Ready yet, si belangkas?

Eurotrip Part II: Scotland

Eurotrip Part I: Nottingham

A year wiser

Tagged again! 'foto-o-me'

Sarah si pemalas update blog :P

I've been tagged!!

Istanna Suwayya! Fi eh kaman..?

Sum up of Raya 2008

Buat Org Kampung...1st day Raye

Memory Lane revisited.

*wink*wink* Part 2

Maybe its Maybelline..?

testing

practice makes purrrfect

I'm going home!!!

What would it be...?

Jelajah Benua: A Day at the farm

Prodigy Potluck (oh, it's food again...)

XOXO for my mum ;)

Two Mothers, One Message

Dinner, is served.

Praise be upon Him

Mixed emotions...

Princess Day Out

Beyond Words...

Bring it on!! ^0^

Mencintaimu Ya Rasulullah..

Antara GE dan adat...

*wink*wink* =)

'Post-stress' post.

Sajak Ummu Saif [saifulislam.com]

Hantaran Calculator

Eurotrip 2008

Fear.

Zipped Mode

Rossa - Ayat-Ayat Cinta

Doctor, the clock ain't stop clicking...

Burnin' d kitchen's oil..

winkwink* Part 2

winkwink* =)